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I'm not going to kill myself.
I'm just stuck. In between. Everything.
I need a change. Something. Anything.
I tried to be someone else,
but nothing seemed to change.
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
But I was already a step ahead. I didn't trust anyone.
Not for directions, not for rides, not for advice either.
Sure, it sucked to be lost, but I long ago realized that
I preferred it to depending on anyone else to get me
where I needed to go. That was the thing about being
alone, in theory or in principle: whatever happened - good,
bad or anywhere in between - it was always, if nothing
else, your own.
Terrible things happen, yes.
But sometimes, those terrible
thing, they save you.
Maybe it doesn't mean anything to you anymore,
maybe it never did. But it meant a lot to me,
you meant a lot to me- and you still do.
i love myself
for once
not anyone else
but myself
& giving myself some love
is a first
no one has ever truly loved me
i'm glad i can count on myself
it's so hard to watch someone
that means so much
to gradually slip out of my life
and there's no grip
it's sad that you never had the strength
to give me the respect
& tell me what happened
& still even after i found out
you lied about it
that right there
will hold me back from EVER
trusting you again
And it's great to have somebody that you know so well that you don't even have to verbalize what you're thinking most of the time. The other person just gets it, picks up on it. And, it's like that with us. It's great, and I like it, but it's not love.
I'm coming to some realizations. One is that I've basically spent the past 2 years avoiding my house at all costs, and making my life a lot more stressful on myself that need be. I've been self destructive and selfish and I'm ready to take responsibility and take care of myself and grow and learn and accept. I'm ready to be close with my mom again and appreciate everything my parents do for me, because in a few short months everything will be changing and I will be moving away and I don't want to leave with broken relationships and unspoken words. I'm growing up and it's time I embrace it and act like it. I've taken so much for granted. I wish I had a time machine. I'm so sorry.
I’m a pool of imperfections. Sometimes I’m moody. I can get angry easily. I listen to my music way too loud. And I don’t always put a good foot forward. I can snap at people, but of course I don’t mean to. I hold things off until the last minute, and sometimes I just don’t want to make a first move so things go undone. I can be messy, confusing, and even a little careless at times.”
maybe that's the thing i like most about you,
that no matter how hurt i am, you can always
fix it with just a simple hug.
that when i'm breaking down
just one of your smiles makes me forget about the tears.
that i can be angry and ready to explode
but by the time we're done talking you have me laughing.
maybe that's the thing i like most about you,
that you take the reasons for pain away
i need someone who can keep up with me.
I want someone agressive, who pushes
me to my breaking point where I just wanna scream.
Someone who will tell me that I'm
not always right, and that sometimes I have to apologize for what I do wrong.
I need someone who's gonna set me straight because
no one has ever cared enough aboutme to try
i used to be afraid of so many things;; that i'd never grow up, that i'd be trapped in the same place for all eternity, that my dreams would forever by shy of my reach. it's true what they say, time plays tricks on you. one day you're dreaming, the next your dream has become your reality. and now that this scared little girl no longer follows me wherever i go, i miss her. i do. cause there are things i want to tell her; to relax, to lighten up, that it's all going to be okay. i want her to know that meeting people who like you, who understand you, who actually accept you for who you are, will become an increasingly rare occurrence. these people who contributed to who i am, they're with me wherever i go. and as history gets rewritten in small ways with each passing day, my love for them only grows. cause the truth is, it was the best of times. mistakes were made, hearts were broken, harsh lessons learned. but all of that has receded into fond memory now. how does it happen? why are we so quick to forget the bad and romanticize the good? maybe it's cause we need to believe that the time we spent together actually meant something, that we were there for each other in a time in our lives that defined us all, a time in our lives that we'll never forget. i can't swear this is exactly how it happened, but this is how i felt.
When I get frustrated about something, my automatic reaction is to throw in the towel and say, "I give up." Not once have I ever truly given up on the things that frustrate me. I may forget about them for awhile, but they always come back to me and I grudingly finish them. I've always wondered how it would feel to honestly give up. To try something once and forget it about it forever. Like when you try to open a new jar of hot sauce. You twist and turn at that lid but it's a hopeless cause. So what do you do? Give up? Yes. But do you find a stronger person to get it open? Yes again. Maybe if I put the jar back in the fridge and walk away I'll feel a little more alive inside.
I'm a lover and a fighter. I get angry easily, but I'm working on it. I party, sleep, and think too much, but I get my shit done. I have a weakness for sweet talkers, but I'm learning and enforcing my boundaries. I don't let many people in, but once they're in, they're there forever. I'm strong and independent, and I've been broken, but never shattered.
but don't expect me to be happy for you
& don't smile at me & tell me things
will work out for me too. I don't want
your pity. I hate your pity
i've always avoided fights, i make jokes instead. i tell people what they want to hear in order to avoid a confrontation. i pretend to want things i don't want, and pretend to not want things i do want. no one gets hurt. except me. the lines are so crossed and blurred at this point that i don't know what i want. i just know i want it to be easy.
“You can shed tears that he is gone, or you can smile because he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all he's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see him, or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember him only that he is gone, or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what he'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”
I guess it was my fault too;
I decided not to listen to what people told me about you,
I listened to all your lies and believed them.
I guess I was just a pawn in your little game,
and I was so blind it took me this long to see what you were doing to me,
and now you've realized what you've lost,
standing infront of me, asking for a second chance.
We both know that to you, I'll always be second best.
Does it ever feel like nothing you do is ever good enough? Like, the whole world has turned its back on you. I do. Sometimes, it feels like I'm on top of the world. But then, I looked down, and realize it's only a step ladder. It's like a 5-year-old coloring a picture. She works for hours and hours on it, but in the end, all we see is mere scribbles. You probably think I'm stupid, don't you. You're probably not even listening to me-it's all right. It doesn't bother me. Really. I'm used to it.
I've learned this past year. I've changed, I've grown. Maybe things do happen for a reason, maybe they don't. But no matter what, they still happen. That's what we need to remember. I learned to stop analyzing things, to just let them happen. And if I get hurt, or if something bad happens, then it happens. There's nothing I can do to change that. I've learned to go with my gut, and that it's okay to make mistakes because the ones that matter won't care. I've learned that love really is as great as they say it is. I've learned that your friends can save you from your worst enemy: yourself. And most importantly, I've learned that today is all we have.
I am the brown-eyed brunette with a good sense of humor. I am the caring best friend, who would do anything for you in the blink of an eye. I'm the girl whose always just a friend, and never the girlfriend. I'm the beautiful girl who thinks she'll never be good enough. I'm the stranger who always smiles when I walk by you. I'm one of the guys and despite how cool that may be sometimes I just need a girl to talk to. I am the one who never gets what I deserve and have come to expect less. I am the one that won't let this life get to her. I'm strong and I won't give up.
I don't like wearing makeup because it makes me feel like I'm wearing a mask. I don't own any fancy brand-name clothes, mainly because I can't afford them, but it doesn't bother me. I get by with what I can. I've never had a boyfriend and I’ve never been to Disneyworld. I’ve never been invited to a party on some Friday night and I've never had alcohol. I get good grades and I stress over school all the time. And yet, I feel like I'm the happiest person in the world and that I'm not missing out on anything.
When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness. That is a friend who cares.
it's been months since we've actually had
a real conversation. it's been months since
you last called. it's been months since i've seen
your face. what we had seems like it's been
forgotten & replaced. it seems like it was a one
ime deal, like i only had one chance with you,
& that one chance has been screwed up. i didn't
mean to. i let you go, i'll admit that, but i thought
you'd care enough to come back. you always
made me smile, but a smile isn't forever.
but now it's too late, & i've moved on.
We turn to God for help when our foundations
are shaking, only to learn
that it is God who is shaking them.
+ + Charles C. West
I won't ever forget. That's what pisses me off the most.
He'll always be a part of my heart. It's too hard to let go.
Now that's not even an option.
She's the girl that has a few best friends & doesn't need anymore, the girl that laughs the hardest at her own jokes. She's the girl that will hang up on you, but then call you right back & say sorry. She's the girl who will never leave your side when you need her, the girl who will go out of her way to cheer you up. She's the girl who never sleeps without her teddy bear by her side, she's the girl who says she isn't ticklish, but really is. She's the girl who will not give up on you if she really believes in you. She's the girl who believes in loving somebody forever.
Ever have that one person in your life that you just can't give up on, the one person that can screw you over time after time, yet you always seem to give them another chance, and no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know it's a lie because there's always just one more waiting for them. The one person you know you're better off without but yet you can't find a way to let them go because deep down inside, you wouldn't know what to do without them. The one person you know doesn't deserve you, but yet you choose to over look it because you love him.
My heart didn't break into a thousand pieces after he left.
Instead, I realized all the things he didn't do.
I didn't want to hear my stories; he didn't ask me questions.
He didn't smile when I was talking to him.
He didn't hug me out of the blue to make me feel good.
His hugs were always a preamble to something else and after he was gone,
I wondered if he ever knew me at all.
I don't have the stunning eyes that make you
want to stare deep into them & wonder about their color.
My body is covered with scars from the times
I fell on my knees as a kid, scraping skin.
I am not the skinny, hot girl who takes your breath away.
And somedays my hair doesn't look the best;
it can be poofy or just an unfixable mess.
Really what makes me up is flaw after flaw.
But I couldn't handle being perfect in everyway
or even in just one way, because the price of
living life the way I do is imperfection.
And I'm okay with that because I live the life I want.
I miss how you never gave a crap,
but you always seemed to care,
I miss the way you'd be such a jerk,
but you were somehow always there.
I miss how we'd talk for hours on end,
but most of all, more then anything
I miss just being together.
i wonder why it is, i dont argue like this with anyone but you. i wonder why it is, i wont let my gaurd down to anyone but you
be my bad boy, be my man
be my weekend lover, but dont be my friend
you can be my bad boy
but understand, that i dont need you in my life again.
I hate how we don't talk for weeks
but then all of a sudden you talk to
me again. and&& it is like as if
nothing happened .. && i slowy
start falling for you ... all over again
I hate how we never hang out anymore,
& how we were great friends.
I hate how you'll never flirt with me,
but then you'll flirt with my best friends.
I hate how whenever I see you, you don't see me.
I hate when I have something to say online,
your only response is, "okay."
And boy, do I hate it when you make smile.
Maybe we’re not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is; appreciating small victories, admiring the struggles is takes simply to be human. Maybe we’re thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we’re thankful for the things we’ll never know…
You know what I love most about us? I love how comfortable we are with each other. I love how we endlessly pick on each other, but we never take the teasing to heart. I love how I laugh like a little kid when you tickle me. I absolutely adore how when I walk away from you when we're fighting, you try to stay mad, but then you ran after me. I love you and everything about you: the look in your eyes after we kiss, or how you stay up watching me sleep. I love how I can call you anytime I need to and somehow you never cease to make me laugh. I love how you need me as much as I need you. I love how you love me as much as I love you.
Laugh at yourself, but don't ever aim your doubt at yourself. Be bold. When you embark for strange places, don't leave any of yourself safely on shore. Have the nerve to go into unexplored territory.
Failure will never overtake you if your determination to succeed is strong enough.
· I’m a straight forward kinda girl. If you ask me what I'm thinking I'll tell you, no sugar coating. Because that's not what life is all about. It’s about dealing with the pain that comes along. So if you are gong to tell me how you feel, don't lie. If I ask something, I want to know the truth- not the lie.
- She’s different from the rest of the girls.
She’s not a fake person.
She can always suggest good music.
She’ll over analyze everything you ever possibly say.
And honestly, she couldn't care less about what most people think.
She’s beginning to learn that she can do just fine on her own
Who I am and what I'm
capable of doing has always
managed to surprise me
I want a boy who will tell me when I’m being stupid. Who won’t baby me with his words. A boy who will still give time to his friends. A boy who will tell me ‘No.’ He will watch stupid movies with me, but makes me watch his favorites also. A boy who’s willing to drop everything to be with me, but knows when to let it be. A boy who will know he’s important to me, but won’t mind when I change my plans to help someone out. A boy who won’t mind my country urges, but will laugh at me when I pretend to be a cowboy. I want a boy who’s enjoyable to look at, he doesn’t have to be gorgeous, I just want someone who I can pay attention to. A boy who will randomly bring me food, ‘cause he knows I love to eat. A boy who can make jokes about me, a boy that I can laugh with. Someone who won’t mind when I even embarrass myself. A boy who will buy me something, something I would actually want, none of that jewelry crap. Someone who doesn’t do everything I ask, but when it comes to something important I can count on him to be there. Someone who I don’t feel threatened by. A boy who has other friends that are girls, but I can trust him with them. A boy who will know when to leave me alone when I have my stupid fits. A boy who I can just sit with. I don’t need the whole fairytale deal; I just want to feel comfortable.
I've learned a lot. I've learned that everything does happen for a reason. I've learned that everyone I've met has helped me to grow and learn in some way, whether they've been there as support or to make my life a living hell, it still helped me learn. I've learned to just accept things and not question things too much. I've learned not to take things too seriously because it just stresses you out too much. I've learned to suck it up, keep my head up, and continue on with life like it didn't bother me at all. I've learned that you have to make mistakes in order to learn from them. And most importantly, I know that whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
It’s been a long time since I’ve actually enjoyed the sunset. I like all the colors mixing into each other. I am getting better, slowly, and things are starting to look up. Sometimes you might even see me cracking a true honest-to-god smile. It’s rare but it happens more often now. And even if no one else notices, I do. And that is all that really matters.
I need the smell of summer
to wake up to the sound of a lawnmower.
Spending everyday with your best friends,
the smell of cholorine in your hair,
thinking that you will find love,
staying up late and sleeping in,
bonfires with friends.
Saying goodbye to drama
because for 3 months, you don't care.
It's the people who hug you and never want to let go, the people who you haven't seen for months, but nothing has changed at all, the people who give to you more than you give to them, the people that truly understand who you are, the people who you cry about, the people who you live for, the people in your photographs that have light genuinely shining through their eyes and their smile, the people that take your breath away
I can hardly remember that night anymore. I can barely remember your face, or your voice. It breaks my heart knowing I can never get those nights back. I miss you so much. I could have fallen in love with you. I was scared, and young. You will never be forgotten. Always in my heart.
It’s funny how the less you talk, the more you begin to realize it wasn’t meant to be. It’s funny how slow it began and how fast it ended. It’s funny how in the beginning he liked you but at the end he liked someone else. It’s funny how he meant everything to you but you meant nothing to him
The simple things in life
are the most beautiful.
And as much as i'd like to say i'd never give him a second chance, i know deep down i'd give him a million second chances.
It took alot for me to open up to you. I don't usually do that often, and I did it for you.
Now, all that just got shoved back into my face, and I realized why I never opened up in the first place.
She's single.
With no intentions of looking for a guy.
This time, she's waiting for him to find her
And if you really need him, fate will bring him back.
It may not be soon, but he'll come back.
I miss how you never gave a shit, but you always seemed to care. I miss the way you would be such a dick, but you were somehow always there. I miss how we talked, for hours on endd, but most of all, more than anything, I miss being just friends.
it's so hard to watch someone
that means so much
to gradually slip out of my life
and there's no grip
i hate losing him.
i hate getting told i deserve better,
when i don't want better
For once in her life, she wants someone to take a chance with her so she can show them she could really be worth it.
I didn't care if we were just friends,
I just wanted to keep him in my life.
It hurts knowing that hes no longer there.
You have to understand her passion to
really understand what she's all about.
She doesn't wear four inches of makeup on her face
she likes wearing sweatpants
&& likes having her hair up in a ponytail,
Rather than in her face,
but beside all that, she's beautiful
It's the way you never told me you had a girl.
It's the way you always get mad when
I bring up a boy.
It's the way you get sad when
I talk about the past
That tells me you still care.
Sometimes I'm a little psychotic,
&& a lot of times my socks never match,
my hair is usually out of place,
&& I'm not the most graceful girl on the planet.
The room I live in never manages to stay clean
for more than a few days,
&& I change my outfit at least three times a day.
I can be loud and obnoxious && hard to deal with.
To sum it all up, I'm not perfect, but you know what?
I’m totally fine with that.
Happiness is when
You get a first kiss.
Find a four leaf clover.
Receive a love letter.
Wake up in a great mood.
Fall in love.
See the sun shining.
Find you're new favorite band.
Realize what you've been missing.
See someone you haven't seen in forever.
Have wonderful dreams.
Meet a new friend.
Read a fabulous book.
Find exactly what you're looking for –
In the place that you least thought it would be.
The littlest things make me laugh.
It’s not hard to please me. I’m a free-spirit.
I’m strong and determined.
I love to look at the stars.
"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning." -Tuesdays with Morrie
Even if we never talk again please remember that I'm forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me.
I think I’m finally getting used to the sucky days caused by you, the fake smiles and good times, the glances over that now mean absolutely nothing, how whenever I get that ‘1 new text message,’ I’m always hoping it’s you, the plans that never really happen. I think I’m finally getting used to liking you and all that comes with it.
Did you know that Cinderella didn’t have to take her dress off to win her Prince? She had love without regrets and she didn’t lose anything she couldn’t get back in the morning.
When I stand before God at the end of my life, I hope that I don't have a single bit of talent left and I can say, "I used everything You gave me."
Do not be shaped by this world; instead be changed within by a new way of thinking. Then you will be able to decide what God wants for you; you will know what is good and pleasing to Him and what is perfect.
-- Romans 12:2 <3
i knew from the very beginning that you were just a flirt, and yet i fell in love with you knowing i'd get hurt. i'll conceal my broken heart behind a smiling face and though you thought i never cared, nobody can take your place.
she's the one i go to when i need someone to talk to. i go to when i need advice about whats-his-face. who calls me stupid for still liking jerk . who can always help me look at the positive side of things. who i call my best friend.
i've had many "best friends" walk in and out of my life. and i've been hurt many times by these so called "friends". but each experience has made me stronger, a better person and a better friend. now i have finally found a group of people who i can consider my friends, my crew with whom i don' have to pretend to be someone i'm not. and who, oddly enough, like me because of who i am.
I wasn't mad because he didn't like me,
I was jealous because he liked her.
In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take, the relationships we were afraid to have and the descisions we waited too long to make.
Yeah, we all want to enjoy our teenage years with our friends, making memories, taking pictures, and staying out all night. but don't forget to be with those who made you who you are today, your family. Don't take them for granted, or think they'll always be
there. Yes, they'll be there for the rest of their lives, because they love you. But who's to say how long that will be?
I'm a real mess and so is my room. I like it better tha way. I laugh way too much for my own good. I always end up saying the wrong thing at the right time. I'm loud, and chances are I'll never end up hating you, even if I say I do. Go figure. I can't keep a steady relationship in my life, becasue they say I'm not "girlfriend material."
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Have you seen her with her friends?
That’s who she really is.
Not the shy,quiet girl that she’s pictured as.
Take a closer look.
She might actually surprise you.
she was always the first person to help everyone out
giving advice, and helping them find answers.
she always seemed to have the perfect response
little did they know, she needed more advice than she could give.
You assume that I'm fine, but you don't know how to read between the lines.
I swing from moody and callous to giddy and humorous in naught point-one second.
That's not because I'm easy going or feeling guilty for being off hand with you.
It's lack of confidence and self-esteem.
It's trying to fit in and trying to hide the scars at the same time.
Maybe I'm doing a good job and that's why you don't see.
he's finally starting to see the real girl inside me..
the girl hiding behind the quiet, ambitious one.
the one who loves her friends more than life itself,
and will laugh about pretty much anything, because she can, and because she wants to.
and the girl who truly believes that life is all about living it up and making it memorable,
and tries to live up to that every day.
tough love; it's just that way.
i call her a slut and
she calls me a bitch.
definition: best friends
I'm pretty sure you're gonna think I'm a spaz
& that I enjoy food too much
& that I tend to be a bit crazy
& that I'm not the best person you'll ever meet
You're probably gonna think a lot of strange stuff about me
I just hope you'll give me a chance.
be careful
you can keep pushing her away
but one day, she might not come back
and you'll wish she did
When I get frustrated about something, my automatic reaction is to throw in the towel and say, "I give up." Not once have I ever truly given up on the things that frustrate me. I may forget about them for awhile, but they always come back to me and I grudingly finish them. I've always wondered how it would feel to honestly give up. To try something once and forget it about it forever. Like when you try to open a new jar of hot sauce. You twist and turn at that lid but it's a hopeless cause. So what do you do? Give up? Yes. But do you find a stronger person to get it open? Yes again. Maybe if I put the jar back in the fridge and walk away I'll feel a little more alive inside.
I want things to be more than okay. For you to say what you mean and mean it. I want this tension, this awkwardness to be gone. I don't want you; that ship has sailed. I just want you to admit you were wrong to break my heart the way you did
I think I am okay with my life right now. I think I am perfectly content with the direction in which it is headed. I think I have finally figured out the things that once confused me. I think I am ready to move on. I think I think too much
No, I'm not in a relationship. But that doesn't mean I'm availble to you, or him, or anyone else. I'm waiting and going on my own terms, trying to find out who I am
The more you talk to me, the more you'll realize I'm not your typical girl. I’m not fond shopping. I love computer games like The Sims 2 and Nancy Drew Mysteries. I've loved to read for as long as I can remember. Depending on the day I am quite possibly the most sarcastic person you will ever meet in your life. I tend to hide my feelings and try not get caught up in the high school drama. I love the Lord more than I love myself. I easily fall for someone, but it takes something special for me to fall in love. I've loved listening to George Strait since I was little. I'm very jumpy; small things can scare me. I’m not into drugs or alcohol. If you want to make me smile just give me a daisy, my face will light up instantly.
It is difficult to believe in God, not because He is so far off, but because He is so near.
i think a guy becomes friends with a girl (and vice versa) because they're both attracted to each other when they first meet. and if they weren't attracted to each other, they would never have given each other a second look.
I miss us. I miss how we used to be. How we used to talk, smile, laugh. How we used to be real friends, who could trust each other with everything. What happened to all that?
You've made me into a whole different person.
Happy, confident, and fun to be around.
But mostly, you put hope back into my life.
If for no other reason, that's why you came into my life-
to show me hope again.
Strength is being able to say "no thanks" to someone who,
despite how they glow under the moonlight,
forgets to call the next day.
I'm telling you, she is more of a treasure than you could possibly know.
She is not just some wholesome, small town girl, some like, good for you breath of fresh air.
She is a wonderful person with a huge heart. And the kind of beauty that a guy only sees once, you know?
Once! So if there is even a chance that you could break her heart, please, just for her sake, walk away man.
I'm a lover and a fighter. I get angry easily, but I'm working on it. I party, sleep, and think too much, but I get my shit done. I have a weakness for sweet talkers, but I'm learning and enforcing my boundaries. I don't let many people in, but once they're in, they're there forever. I'm strong and independent, and I've been broken, but never shattered.
Doing what you love is freedom.
Loving what you do is happiness.
You make me nervous;
I guess that makes you different from all the rest.
you still mean everything to her.
you just aren't worth the fight anymore.
They complement each other, when one is serious, the other tells them to live a little, the careful one tells the rebel to chill a little, and the skanky one makes sure the prude can let go a little. thats why they are bestfriends.
When he's kissing me, all that’s going through my head are thoughts of you. It’s kind of funny, but it’s kind of sad, how your name is the only name I ever listen for. And when his fingers are entwined with mine, our conversation from the night before keeps me occupied. You know I only kiss him to make you jealous; but it’s tragic really because you never will be. And when I lie with him on my bed, I'll exchange my empty words with his meaningful ones. I should feel guilty; but I don't feel anything, for anyone - but you.
I'd like to think I never did those things
or never said that to you. But the truth
is, I did and that's a part of me. I make
mistakes, and I know who I am because
of them. I lost you because of it,
but to lose you meant to gain myself.
live in such a way
that those who know you
but dont know God
will come to know God
because they know you.
she wants him. she can't deny
it. she's just so confused. because
when she thinks back to the day he
shattered her, she trembles at the
thought of feeling like that again.
No, I don't really think of you as a crush anymore. You're more of a bad habit I just can't seem to shake off.
Just once, I want to be beautiful.
I want some guy to think in his head,
Wow, she is really pretty.
I don't want it to happen after they know me,
Or after they realize
How pretty I am on the inside.
For once, I want to walk in a room,
And have all the guys want to talk to me.
Just once, I want guys to ask me out,
Just because I'm pretty.
Maybe I'm not as outgoing as her,
And maybe she's prettier than I am,
but i'll bet you she hasn't gone through what i have.
i'll bet she has never
sat down on her bed and just cried,
cried her heart out because
the world was caving in
and she just couldn't take it anymore
I've changed so much. I wish you knew how much you changed me. I know I didn’t change yours but, my gosh, you taught me so much, and from that I've grown. I guess that's what happens.
You kiss a hell of a lot better than you listen.
Maybe that’s why I can’t get enough of you.
It’s true when they say, old habits are hard to break.
but you’ll remain my most tempting mistake.
god only knows all the places i've been.
but i love this life that i'm living in.
i won't look back to regret yesterday.
we're not handed tomorrow, so i'll live for today.
I’ve accepted that we can’t be but I’ve also accepted that you’re going to be that one person I carry with me for the rest of my life, the one who is always going to make my heart jump a little and my stomach tie up in knots. No matter how happy I am otherwise and no matter how long it’s been. The one I will always wish had secretly asked me to the dance even though I’m happier with the guy that did. Do you realize how incredibly difficult it is to accept both those things at once?
You kissed me and then you said you didn’t
want me to fall in love with you.
But didn’t you know you already had me
from the first moment you looked into my eyes.
I gave you my heart immediately..
and that scared you I guess.
I kissed him.
And I'm not going to lie.
If felt great;;and I really missed him.
I missed those great days we had
Before the break up.
But that's just it, we did break up.
And there were reasons.
Maybe sometimes;; Its just better to be miserable.
Because in the long run, you'll be happier.
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In my life time, I've come to realize that you can't depend upon other people for what you want and you can't be scared to go out there and get it. You have to dream big, wish hard, and chase after your goals because no one is going to do it for you.
i sing out of tune and i can't keep beat
i drop my food in my lap 'cause that's just me
i draw pictures on my hands, and i write notes on my mirror
i sit backwards in chairs, i eat with a spoon
i'm saying hello while other's are saying goodbye
i laugh at the part of the movie that should make my cry
because being different is a my thing
After all these months, all this time, so much has happened; the talks, the phone calls, the laughs and the feelings. If I were to look back on them, I would have never believed that that person was once me. I wouldn't recognize that girl because she's so different from me, but I guess changing and moving on is growing up. I'm growing up and finding out what kind of person I want to be for the rest of my life, and maybe in the future, there are more changes to come. But as for right now, this is who I'm proud to be.
She's sorry and you can tell. That grin on her face is gone.
You thought she'd been leading you along,
but boy, you got to her like no one has.
maybe you're just afraid that someone
might actually wanna be with you.
cause then you couldn't hide anymore;
you'd be out there taking a risk
on something that may or may not work
and that's not good enough for you, is it?
i'll tell you what, love is never 100% positive.
you can't fall unless you take that risk;
and if you don't take that risk,
you'll be hiding forever.
I've always avoided fights. I make jokes instead. I tell people what they want to hear in order to avoid a confrontation. I pretend to want things I don't want, and I pretend not to want things I do want. No one gets hurt. Except me. The lines are so crossed and blurred at this point that I don't know what I want. I just know I want it to be easy.
she looked at her best friend, and said "every guy wants you why are you even worried about him?"
her best friend then replied, "he's the only one that matters."
If a man takes the risk to cheat
he's saying
'this is worth losing her'
I learned a lot about myself from the
past year, but I still don't know what
I'm about. Because knowing who you
are isn't knowing who you're not.
That's what innocence is, you know. A blissful oblivion of what's coming, of what
you'll lose and what you'll gain, and what kind of person you'll grow up to be.
--Laura Weiss
Laying there with your arms around me, I felt so comfortable and safe.
My heart was beating a mile a minute having you so close to me.
As you played with my hair and kissed me,
I couldn't help but smile straight from my heart.
I could see how much you cared from the look in your eyes.
It made me never want to let you go, to just stay wrapped in your arms forever,
where nothing else matters but you and me.
I will never forget the way you looked sitting next to me, and how you smiled when we rolled around on the ground. But soon we were alone, and it was time to learn your taste and kiss your lips and grab your waist and feel your hips. Late nights have never been the same.
you tell her she's the one, but i'm the one that wears your coat.
you tell her that she's pretty, but i see the way you look at me.
you tell her i'm just a friend, but the way you hold me says different.
you tell her you love her, but i'm the one with you on those lonely nights.
you can tell her anything, but actions speak louder than words.
I'm not like them. I don't give myself away like all of those other girls. You'll have to work harder than you can even imagine just to get a simple little kiss.
Suicide is one of those topics that are never easy to talk about. We've all been effected by it. A best friend, brother or sister, aunt or uncle, parent, cousin… Even some attempts on ourselves maybe. Not everyone admits that it's a sore spot, some even joke about it. But we all know its there. You can see it when you look into their eyes. Plain as day. So don't say you don't want to get involved, and walk away. Stay a while, and let them know you understand.
I'm scared to get too close to people.
Whether they're friends or whatever.
It seems that everytime i get too close to someone,
They always have to go away.
Maybe it's to teach me how life goes on.
And how i shouldn't depend on people.
Or maybe, i just trust the wrong people.
"what would you do if you could do anything?"
"This" i said.
And then i kissed him
Why is it that when i'm talking to a boy,
Who has nothing to do with you.
And we're on the verge of getting together.
You pop in my head?
Out of no where.
I see you standing there with those eyes.
And suddenly i can't stop thinking about you.
And it's not like we've ever really been together.
But the thought of bing with anyone but you...
Never seems to leave me.
Does that ever happen to you?
Do you sevretly want to be with me too?
And of course,
All these thoughts are now running through my head.
All the moments and memories we've shared over the years.
So,
I tell that new boy i can't be with him.
But then i'm left along.
Because reality hits me.
And i'll never be with you
Being skinny won't bring you attention.
Wearing make-up won't make you prettier.
Dying your hair won't make you cooler.
Having lots of friends won't bring you trust.
Smoking or drinking won't bring you respect.
It's about who you are, What you do, how you act.
And if you're trust worthy and loyal.
I don't beleive in failure.
Because simply saying that you've failed.
You're admitting you made an attempt.
And anyone who attempts is not a failure.
Those who truely fail in my eyes are the ones who never try at all.
They're the ones who just sit on their couches and Bitch and Moan.
And wait for the world to change for them.
Girl: You put this smile on my face.
Boy: And i promise to never take it off.
I know that we won't ever really be close again.
And that hurts more than you'll ever know.
But all i can ask for right now,
Is for you to be a descent person.
Maybe even a descent friend.
Because i need something,
Anything.
I just need some ounce of hope;
That things will look up for us again.
Something to prove we haven't lost everything.
Because right now all i have is memories.
Memories that hurt to remember,
Because i know i can't have them back.
I wonder if you know how much this hurts for me.
How much it hurts to go each day without you.
And to see you not care.
And there are days;
When i think things might be different.
Days when i think things might be finally turning around.
But these are just days that fade away.
That fade away..
Much too quickly.
“may integrity and uprightness protect me, because my hope is in you.”
[psalm 25:21]
And I'll act like I don't care because if
there's one thing I hate, it's sympathy.
But I'm not good for you, and if you want
my friend's opinions, you aren't good for
me either. But disregarding all that,
you still hold my heart, just like always.
I want to appreciate the times when moments are made into memories. I want to embrace them, cherish them, and never forget that they come so few and far between. I know that wherever life takes me, these moments will always follow. They remind me of what's truly important. It's not just life, but living. It's the journey, the destination, and all the points in between. And I must admit, I like what I see.
All my life i was so open about everything.
I let people just walk in to my life, not caring
what they might bring with them. Thats how i got
myself into this mess, i let them walk over me and
use and hurt me but not anymore. I promise from
this day on i will protect myself and ill be damned
if i let someone get the best of me ever again
I don`t want to be "sort of dating" someone. I don`t want to be "kinda hanging out" with someone. I don`t want to spend a lot of energy supressing my feelings so I appear uninvolved. I want to be involved. I want to be sleeping with someone I know I`ll see again because they`ve already demonstrated to me that they`re trustworthy & honorable & into me
I will never regret you
or say that I wish
I'd never met you,
because once upon a time
you were exactly
what I needed
courage is when you’re afraid, but you keep on moving anyway.
courage is when you’re in pain, but you keep on living anyway.
I never told you, I don’t know why
I would’ve have given it all to belong to you.
be brave enough to live creatively. the creative is the place where no one else has ever been.
you have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition.
you cannot get there by bus, only by hard work, risking and by not quite knowing what you are doing.
what you will discover will be wonderful: yourself.
the hardest part was getting this close to you,
and giving up on this dream i built with you.
a fairy tale that isn't coming true
i don't know what the situation is but i can tell in the way we kiss.
we don't talk no more & it feels better when i'm alone.
sometimes i feel like there's no getting through to you.
like you don't appreciate all that i do.
well you gotta show me that you want me to stay,
don't turn & walk away. baby, i'm slowing falling out.
you weren't there when i needed you most. you didn't call or hold me close.
my heart was breaking in so many ways but you walked away knowing i wasn't okay.
and i realized i was never worth it to you
i just can't seem to comprehend that this may be all that i need in life. i've never had all i
needed before, everything eventually got taken away in bits and pieces.
but it doesn't always have to be that way.
just because something good is happening doesn't mean i'm going to lose it.
this is all i need and i have to appreciate every second.
her: well, i'm not like other girls, we both know that.
him: of course i know that. why do you think i like you in the first place?
it's amazing how all this can be happening. i mean, my whole life is falling apart & yet,
every time i talk to him, i stop feeling sorry for myself, & i begin to smile. he always has that affect over me.
happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have
searched, and those who have tried. for only they
can appreciate the importance of people who have
touched their lives.
I know in the back of my mind that life would be so much easier if i never talked to you again.
if i shut you out of my life & moved on. then i could finally get over you. but you make me happy
& whether or not it's right or wrong, i dont have the strength to give up.
peace. it does not mean to be in a place where there is no
noise or hard work. it means to be in the midst of those things
and still be calm in your heart.
to accomplish great things, we must not only act but
also dream. not only plan but also believe.
it's not up to me anymore. if you want me in your life, you'll
find a way to put me there.
lets flip a coin.
heads; your mine.
tails; im yours.
Life isn't about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not for what they have. Most of all, it is about living your life to touch someone else's.
Keep looking up.
Mama used to tell me there’s nothing on the ground but your feet.
Remember our wonderful memories,
but please don’t be afraid to make some more
Sometimes people come into your life
and you know right away that they were meant to be there,
to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson,
or to help you figure out who you are, or who you want to become.
God is close to the broken-hearted. He rescues those who are crushed in spirit.
-- Psalm 34:18
Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, and if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back.
Maybe we're not suppose to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is; appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes to simply be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. & maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.
i know i'm not easy to understand. i know i keep a lot inside, and i know i'm not the easiest person to read. but thats okay you know, because even though there's a lot about me you'll never know - there's a lot of more of me you can learn to love
After all is said & done,
I still think you're amazing.
I still cherish every
moment I spent with you,
every smile you brought to my face.
I'll be forever thankful that
someone like you was brought into my life,
even if you had to be
taken away too soon.
You were my miracle.
most girls say they want a fairytale
but not me, that's not what i want.
i want someone who will make fun
of me and laugh at my jokes even
if they aren't that funny. someone
who will play sports with me and
not let me win just because i'm a
girl. yeah, riding off into the sunset
on a white horse would be nice but
holding hands with someone who
cares about you as much as you
care about them seems so much better
i'm the most unselfish person i know, i've
got a huge heart full of people i love, people
who are fake to me and people i barely
know. i care about everyone, but sometimes
i learned, you cant. you cant put everyone
above yourself, you enter the world alone,
you leave alone.
what happened to us? you know? i dont know
who i am anymore, or how i got here. i miss
who i used to be. i wanna have a home again,
you know? and real friends.. the kind of friend-
ship we used to believe in. i miss that, and i miss
you. i guess i just miss all of it. does any of that
make any sense to you? -- One Tree Hill.
she's not like every other girl. she doesnt give
a shit what she looks like and to her make-up
is a waste of time. she will eat like a pig and
not care if they make fun of her. she'll be a
dork and she'll act stupid. and if you havent
noticed, she probably has the best friends
around. and its not because she's a stupid
fake teenager, its cause she's herself:) :)
She's beautiful and she doesn't even know it, she stares at herself in the mirror but she always sees the self conscious side of herself, never the one that's glamorous, she never sees the one the guys are after reflected in that mirror. She plays her cards right and she always the one who plays the role of the prey where there's always a lot of predators. She'll never see herself in that light though cause she can't seem to open up to the truth of the beauty she has within her. & she'll always take your compliments but in the back of her head she disregards the words you say and swallow it up as lies, she'll never know how gorgeous she looks in his eyes.
I’m terrified by the thought that I’ll never be enough for anyone, never be good enough to be with anyone that’s compatible for me. I’m scared that I won’t be strong enough when something drastic happens; I’m too gullible to see through lies and prevent myself from pain. I’m scared that I’ll never have the chance to allow someone to see the real me and love me for it, I’m frightened to even allow myself to open up to someone so deeply. I’m petrified of having someone and then losing them because I was too weak to hold on.
There's nothing more valuable than having someone
in your life who reminds you who you are
There's a girl that'll never talk to you because she's too shy. There's a girl who never smiles because her teeth aren't 'Hollywood White'. There's a girl who's insecure. There's a girl who looks in the mirror and wonders what people are talking about. There's a girl who believes she isn't thin. There's a girl who believes she isn't beautiful. There's a girl who's always just the 'best friend'. There's a girl who's never good enough. There's a girl who's too mature. There's a girl with a broken smile. There's a girl that realized that fairytales are never coming true. There's a girl who wonders what it's like to be pretty; to be wanted
I want someone who won't care
that I hate wearing shoes
that I'm incapable of sitting still
&& I refuse to be ladylike.
Someone who realizes
that half the decisions I make
are usually the ones I regret.
&& I have the right to overreact.
I want someone
who knows how completely insane I am
&& he wouldn't want me any other way.
Each relationship between two persons is absolutely unique.
That is why you cannot love two people the same. It simply is not possible.
You love each person differently because of who they are
and the uniqueness that they draw out of you.
I keep thinking I'm over it,
but then I keep finding myself looking for you in the crowd.
i'm always a mess. i'm good at keeping secrets, except my own. i laugh too hard at stupid things. my favorite songs can make me cry. i always watch for 11:11, but i miss it more than i catch it. i live in the past, in the memories i have with the people i love. i hate thinking about reality and i'm so homesick it's not even funny. but not homesick as in a "missing-my-house" kinda way. maybe it's more like heartsick for all the things i can't get back. it's hard for me to define myself; i guess i'm just a cliche. the girl who loved too hard and didn't get anything in return. i don't want to be the heroine in some tragic love story. i just want the people who have never given me a second thought.
I've learned so much about life and emotion from knowing him
and I wouldn't change a thing about it.
Your heart needs to go through some bumps like these in order to make it through.
Besides, no matter what he's done or not done,
he had the biggest impact on me this past year.
And I know no matter how many years go by,
my stomach will always do a little flip whenever I see that face.
Here's to being lied to.
To being walked on, used, promised something, and fed bullshit.
Here's to seeing the best in him,
not believing that he could possibly be as awful as he turned out to be.
Here's to trusting over and over and over again
because you really wanted to believe that what he did was a mistake, that he's changed.
He won't change. The way he is and was is the way he will always be.
If he lies to you, he doesn't feel you are good enough to hear the truth.
If he plays you, you don't mean enough to him for him to be with just you.
Breaking a promise means he is okay with disappointing you.
He knows what he is doing when he is doing it.
He knows what will hurt you and he does it anyway.
As much as he says he does, he doesn't really care about you.
Here's to him saying he's sorry.
With him, it's one of those words that is said so many times, it doesn't even sound like a word anymore.
The only reason he is sorry is because he was caught in his lie.
Excuses mean nothing.
Nothing he could possibly come up with could fix what he did.
Now take this as a lesson learned. Let him go and move on
Every time I think about you
I have to remind myself
that if you wanted to talk to me you would.
Now it's gotten to the point where I'm re-reading our conversations and I can't erase the last texts you sent me, cause that's all that I've got left of you.
If one day, you notice we haven't talked in
awhile, it's not because I don't care anymore,
It's because you pushed me away.
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I can't say I'm proud of my life but I can say I'm proud that I've learned. I've learned that I can't rely on everyone, but I can't expect everyone to hurt me. I know some things don't work out, but I know everything that has been for the better. I can't guarantee I'll be able to walk around with a smile, but I know where I've been and where I'm going. I know who I am and who my friends are. I've had some tough stuff thrown at me, but I've gotten by. I'm not one to complain so I'll keep trying, and in the end, I'll know I did my best
I just love anything that makes me laugh. I think that's important: those stomach-wrenching, jaw-hopping laughs that you can taste inside and out. Feel them, and let them out.
Don't change so much that your best friend can't
talk to you, your friends don’t know who you've
become and you look into the mirror and
wonder who is looking back.
Friends are people who'll never give up on you. They'll
bug you when you have a bad day just to make you
smile, they'll give you space when you need it, they won't
question you, they'll understand what's wrong just by the
look you give them, they aren't afraid to tell you what's
on their mind or to be a little crazy with you. They aren't
afraid to make a fool out of themselves to make you cheer
up in front of their crush, even if they have liked them
forever. They won't lie to you to make you feel good but
they won't tell you the truth if they know it will only
hurt. They'll help you in anyway they can just so you can
land your perfect guy, no matter what you'll always have
a place on their shoulder in case you need to cry.
God will take you through hell, just to get you to Heaven.
im afraid of ending up like my parents
Always aim high, work hard, and care deeply about what you believe in.
When you stumble, keep faith.
And when you're knocked down, get right back up.
And never listen to anyone who says you can't or shouldn't go on
While I'm so busy worrying about guys, friends, clothes, my hair, my body, school, and my grades,
I tend to forget that God is with me and watching over me.
And I never seem to realize that as long as I have Him, everything will be okay.
If I could just lay with you, cuddle with you, be held by you, that's all I need.
I'm not asking for commitment or kisses, I've given up with that.
All I need is just to feel like someone loves me and cares about me,
even if it's just as a friend. cause quite honestly, right now, I could really use a big hug.
i know i shouldn’t like him, cause i know it’s not working,
so i convince myself i don’t.
& then i see him and he’ll smile or put his arm
around me or just say anything and then all
that logic & convincing myself evaporates
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
+Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
Success is not final, failure is not fatal;
it is the courage to continue that counts
It was like she was only there when it was convenient for him;
like she was the gas station no one ever visited unless their tank was coming up on empty.
Yeah, there were days when she hated him & there were days when she was head over heels, too.
But none of those days mattered, because she could never have him no matter how hard she fell.
on the outside, you know you're not the same innocent girl anymore you've been through too much lately but deep down at your core there will always be a part of you that rejects reality and is eternally hopeful
Whenever I’m walking down the hallway at school and I see you coming my way, I determinably avoid looking at you. Out of the corner of my eye, I can see that you’re not looking at me either. But then it makes me wonder if you’re doing the same thing I am.
It just bothers me because you never really do know
if he cares or if it's just a facade. He could tell you that
your his "only one," but how do you know he won't turn
around and say it to someone else too? Relationships
are hard and a lot of people say that it doesn't work
without trust, and yeah, that's true. But I think in order
to be compeletely head over heels, you have to be
willing to be stupid. You have to be willing to fall.
i dont want to like him anymore and i just can't, im obviously not good enough and im not going to sit around and wait until my chance.. until im good enough for him.. so im just over him. but theres seriously something about him that makes me like him so much.. since i met him, there was something about him that makes me go absolutely crazy over him
And it's like this--she was my best friend. I still love her to death,
and I'd help her out with anything...
but things aren't the same anymore, and I miss it more than anything.
I’m putting my walls back up
because I never should’ve let
them down in the first place.
I make mistakes. I have regrets. I hate being alone. I'm always late. I hate school. I never call anyone back. I don't like being wrong. I'm a huge procrastinator. I act like I'm a lot tougher than I am. I hate being ignored. I cry. I'm shy. I get annoyed by people too easily. I have enemies. I can't sing. I have horrible balance. I laugh really obnoxiously. I can't trust anyone with my life. Many things just seem to get to me. I'm not perfect. But the beauty of it is, that I don’t care.
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Always aim high, work hard
and care deeply about what you believe in.
When you stumble, keep faith.
And when you're knocked down,
get right back up.
And never listen to anyone who
says you can't or shouldn't go on
Well that's what we do, we fight. You tell me when I'm being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are being a pain in the ass, which you are 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings, you have a two second rebound rate and then your back to being a pain in the ass. So it's not going to be easy, it's going to be really hard. And we're going to have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you, I want all of you, forever, every day.
you can tell a lot about a person by
the way they handle four things:
a rainy day; the elderly;
lost luggage; & tangled christmas lights
Maybe it's the only way that we can finally stand on our own. You know, to hurt each other so much that we have no choice but to let go, maybe otherwise we never would.
Sometimes you have to take a step back and realize what's important in your life. what you can live with, but more importantly what you can live without.
As hard as it was to move on, I think I'm finally okay with how we are, and at some point, we both wish we didn't ignore each other like that. I'll be forgving you just like you were forgiving me. People make mistakes, second chances are okay. It's like a weight has just been lifted. I can finally breathe and not worry about what he will say or when he wouldv'e finally stopped longer care. He doesn't concern me. I just wonder if he'll come back to me, wishing he would've never screwed things up. I just hope our friendship can have another chance but if this is the way it was meant to be, then I'm honestly okay.
Respect your efforts,respect yourself.Self-respect leads to self-discipline. When you have both firmly under your belt, that's real power.
--Clint Eastwood
You know, one day you look at a person and see something more than you did the day before, like a switch has been flickered somewhere, and the person who was just your friend is suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.
I'd like to think the best of me is still hiding up my sleeve
the reason people find it so hard to be happy,
is that they always see the past better than it was.
First, have faith in those around you, but most importantly, always have faith in yourself.
the more I look around and listen, I realize that I’m not alone.
We are all facing choices that define us. No choice,
however messy, is without importance in the overall picture of our lives.
We all, at our own age, have to claim something,
even if it’s only our own confusion.
I’m in the middle of growing up and into myself.
Just because you're beautiful doesn't mean you don't do ugly things. Just because you're not pretty doesn't mean you don't have the beauty of a flower. Just because you're loud doesn't mean you hate silences. Just because you're quiet doesn't mean you have nothing to say. Just because people see you happy all the time doesn't mean you never cry yourself to sleep. Just because you are unhappy doesn't mean you can never be happy again. Just because you think it'll never happen, it just might.
Maybe we're not suppose to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is; appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes to simply be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. & maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.
I hate how we never hang out anymore,
& how we were great friends.
I hate how you'll never flirt with me,
but then you'll flirt with my best friends.
I hate how whenever I see you,
you don't see me. I hate when I have
something to say online,
your only response is, "cool."
& boy, do I hate it when you make me smile.
I'd like to think I never did those things
or never said that to you. But the truth
is, I did and that's a part of me. I make
mistakes, and I know who I am because
of them. I lost you because of it,
but to lose you meant to gain myself.
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And after that night, I don't think I can
ever forget how you made me feel and how
hours later, I still have the butterflies
from when you held my hand.
All this time I was blaming God for everything,
and thinking he hated me. But it wasn't him at all.
I put myself here. I make myself feel like this.
And I'm the one that made him want to leave.
(c) xStillCaringx
I never knew it would be this hard
to lose something I never had.
I just want to be a kid again.
I want to go back to believing in
everything and knowing nothing at all.
"if someone had told me, that this is where i would end
up today, i would have never believed them."
they say you should never regret anything that made you smile and there is no way i could possibly regret you ever. Because you've made me smile
even when you weren't even with me
sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
It's so weird and confusing that when I say that I
don't know what to do, I mean it. One minute you're
making me laugh out loud, like no other guy can.
And the next I just want to get up and leave because
you piss me off so much.
Regret comes in all shapes and sizes.
Some are small, like when we do a bad thing
for a good reason.
Some are bigger, like when we let down a friend.
Some of us escape the pangs of regret
by making the right choice.
Some of us have little time for regret
because we're looking forward to the future.
Sometimes we have to fight
to come to terms with the past
and sometimes we bury our regret
by promising to change our ways.
But our bigggest regrets are not for the things we did,
but for the things we didn't do.
Things we didn't say,
that could have saved someone we care about,
especially when we can see the dark storm
that's headed their way.
i don't want to start thinking again. not like i have this last week. i can't think again. not ever again. i don't know if you've ever felt like that. that you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. or just not exist. or just not be aware that you do exist. or something like that. i think wanting this is very morbid, but i want it when i get like this. that's why i'm trying not to think. i just want it all to stop spinning.
he knows the real me. the me that prefers
to stay home on weekends to play video games
and eat chips and pizza. the me that runs
around in boxers and my hair a mess but
he actually likes the real me.
and you put your arm around my waist
and pulled me closer
and it didn't feel weird
or crossing any lines.
it made sense,
it just felt right.
And sometimes it just hits me out of nowhere,
all of a sudden this overwhelming sadness
rushes over me. And I get discouraged and I get
upset and I feel hopeless, sad, and hurt and once
again I become numb to the world.
I'm not good at future planning. I don't plan at all. I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow. I don't have a day planner and I don't have a diary. I completely live in the now; not in the past, not in the future.
Friendship is not how long you've been together.
It isn't how much you've given or recieved; nor how many times you've helped each other,
but it's how you value one another."
Find a place to stand
and move the world.
The most important thing in life is
your family. There are days you love
them, and others you don't, but in
the end they're the people that you
always come home to. Sometimes, its
the family you're born into and
sometimes it's the one that you
make for yourself.
You can't change who people are
without destroying who they were.
Instructions for Life:
Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
Don’t believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
When you say “I love you”, mean it.
When you say “I’m sorry”, look the person in the eye.
Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
Never laugh at anyone’s dreams. People who don’t have dreams don’t have much.
Love deeply and passionately. You may get hurt but it’s the only way to live life completely.
In disagreements, fight fairly.
Don’t judge people by their relatives.
Talk slowly but think quickly.
Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
Say “bless you” when you hear someone sneeze.
Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate action to correct it.
Smile when you pick up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
Spend some time alone.
Open your arms to change but don’t let go of values.
Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
Read more books and watch less TV.
Trust in God but lock your car.
A loving atmosphere in your home is so important. Do all you can to create a tranquil harmonious home.
In disagreements with loved ones, deal with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.
Share your knowledge.
Pray, there’s immeasurable power in it.
Never interrupt when you are being flattered.
Mind your own business.
Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a stroke of luck.
Learn the rules, then break some.
Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.
While I'm so busy worrying about guys, friends, clothes, my hair, my body, school, and my grades ... I tend to forget that God is with me and watching over me. And I never seem to realize that as long as I have Him ... everything will be okay.
Dear God, thank You for loving me and sending Your Son, Jesus, to die for me. I believe Jesus lived a perfect life and died in my place for my sins, was resurrected from the dead, and now lives with You in Heaven. I know that I am a sinner - that I think and say and do things against Your will - and that I can never be perfect. So I am trusting Jesus Christ as my Savior and Lord to forgive me of my sins, come into my heart, and live through me. Lord, please give me the strength and wisdom I need to live for You and to be Your witness at school, at home, and wherever I go. My heart and my life are Yours. Thank You so much for Your love. Amen.
Before I met you, I was normal. I didn't care what people thought of me, but as soon as you came along, I suddenly cared what I looked like, and what people though of me. It's like you made me grow up, without even realizing it, and now you never even notice me anymore. So why do I try to impress you every day, when you don't even seem to notice me?
Some mistakes are just too fun to make only once. ;)
same four walls ;same old town
same things day
after day
same everything
how
she would kill
just to be anywhere but here
When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became an adult, I put an end to childish ways. For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know only in part; then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known. And now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; and the greatest of these is love.
I Corinthians 13: 11-13
While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.
don't know what I want to do with my life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any of me left. Everything that ever caused a tear to trickle down my cheeks, I run away and hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me. And I don't know what to do. I just know that the pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten times more.
If I could go back in time, I’d go back to all the times we almost kissed…and I’d kiss you.
just because you deserve it doesn't mean they're going to give it to you.
sometimes, you just have to take what's yours.
every day that we don't speak is another day
i don't need you. & as i slowly stop missing you,
i realize that you weren't that important to me anyway.
kissing comes in where words can't be used... or can't explain these feelings.
girl: yeah... but im not that pretty. i dont understand why everyone says i am...
boy: yeah you are. for sure
girl: why do you say that? seriously.
boy: because it's what I think
girl: well point out why you think im pretty. like i seriously dont understand why people say that.
boy: I don't know. just your face, your smile, just everything about you.
she's jealous of her. without even meeting her. just because she has you.
i'm the type of girl that my friends describe as funny, beautiful, nice, charming, that music helped me survive, God was always there, and who fell down a lot and hard. my family describes me as a girl that just doesn't know what/who she wants, she knows where she wants to be and how to get there, and who needs a little shove in the right direction every now and then... my enemies would say that the only reason they hated me... is because their boyfriends cheated on them with me... and they all say that i'm the only person that could do something that couldn't be replaced... and i had found my place in this world...
want my funeral to reflect the life i lived... i don't want people crying, i want them laughing and smiling... i want people making other people feel better... i want my family and friends remembering the good times... and things we planned but that never happened...
who i am this year and who i was last year are two totally different people. stop getting them confused.
i talk too much, i ramble about nothing. i truly have no self confidence && i can be mean... really mean. i have no self control && i make many mistakes. i have been known to puch people away. my language, well thats a different story. but im just a girl. i want to feel loved && think im pretty. i am me. plain && simple take it or leave it.
it was foolish of my to think you actually wanted me the sophmore when youre the junior && you have her... little miss perfect girlfriend... its true, im not perfect, but im almost perfect... but i guess almost perfect isnt good enough...
The secret is, I trust people much too easily. When someone asks for my attention, I more than happily plunge into their gaze, smile too much & listen too much. I create a false image of someone else on my own, believe their sincerity with my whole heart. Therefore I am my own downfall, & there is not one person to blame besides myself.
God understands our prayers even when we can't find the words to say them.
Your friends are you release; they're who you have the most fun with. and yet when the going gets tough those people turn around & suddenly they're not just making you laugh; they're being this rock & giving you all their advice, even though you're so much your own person. If you dissect yourself, I guarantee you your friends are in there. Their influence is incredible; best friends are what you need most.
We're not perfect, we laugh too hard
we are way too loud && we make
complete fools out ourselves but
doing it together is what makes us
Best friends forever
I'll always care & I'll always be there,
like you have from the start.
At one point in time, we'll say our goodbyes,
become adults, & live our separate lives.
But sun or rain, no matter what weather;
you're always my best friend, now & forever!
I want to thank you.
Thank you for always listening to me when
I just needed to vent.
Thank you for understanding what I needed,
for being my best friend.
And for not giving up on me when everyone else had.
I don't understand,
how just the touch of your hand
can make me feel invincible.
Do you know just where you take me?
Do you know how high you make me?
I do understand the impulse.
The impule to put your hand out and
want someone to be there at the end of your
reach. To want someone to be close to.
To want to kiss or touch, even if it's wrong.
The point is you can't control these feelings.
Even if they're wrong, they are still there.
They're always there.
It just bothers me because you never really do know
if he cares or if it's just a facade. He could tell you that
your his "only one," but how do you know he won't turn
around and say it to someone else too? Relationships
are hard and a lot of people say that it doesn't work
without trust, and yeah, that's true. But I think in order
to be compeletely head over heels, you have to be
willing to be stupid. You have to be willing to fall.
(c) xStillCaringx
Slip your hand in mine.
Don't worry about what they say
I talk way too much. I ramble on about nothing.
I have no self confidence. I can’t be mean.
I have no self control. I've been known to push people away
and my language is definitely not the greatest.
But I'm just a girl. And I want to feel loved and be told I'm pretty.
I'm me; plain and simple. Take it or leave it.
Shes never 'the one', just that girl left behind.
And she's confused at how everyone else can feel like that.
At least they belong somewhere.
At least their number one in someones heart.
Shes always been second best, never good enoughh.
And maybe, just maybe, shes sick of it.
I always avoided fights.
I make jokes instead.
I tell people what they want to hear in
order to avoid a confrontation. I pretend to want
things I don't want and I pretend not
to want things I do want. No one gets hurt.
Except me.
Times were tough, but memories remain.
Situations were rough but we overcame.
Side by side, together we grew.
When all is said & done I'll look back on friends like you.
admit it.
you only want me
when you can't have her
You find out who your friends are. Somebody who'll drop everything, run out and crank up their car, hit the gas, get there fast. Never stop to think, "What's in it for me?" or "That's way too far." Yeah, you find out who your friends are.
Surround yourself with people you love being yourself with.
"The way you overcome shyness is to become so wrapped up in something that you forget to be afraid." - Lady Bird Johnson
it's not who you spend the most time with,
it's who you have the best memories with.
Do not place your happiness in things outside of yourself;
people move on and cities burn.
Instead, try to find joy in yourself.
Find passion in simple things.
Look in the mirror and see the most beautiful human being of all staring back at you.
Do what you love and do not let another manipulate your peace of mind.
Above all, learn to love yourself.
Learn to be okay when you are alone.
Realize that nothing worthwhile comes overnight.
I'm not that good of a person. I make mistakes, I have regrets. I act a lot slower than I really am. I cry. I laugh way to loud when something isn't really that funny. And sometimes the mean things people say about me can really get to me. But, when I'm with you, I found none of that matters because you make me smile.
She's one of those girls who doesn't know what she's doing, but she wants to know everything will be worth it one day. She isn't amazing at one thing, she's just good at alot of things, and that's all she'll ever be. She wishes she could be different, but she still lives her life to the fullest anyway. All she truly needs is love to keep her sane. She looks at her world like it's a book, with pages being read everyday. She's her own worst enemy and hardest critic. She knows she has flaws and tries to accept them, even though she knows she never fully will. More than anything though, she just wants to make a difference one day, and she wants someone to remember her name.
I'm not that girl.
I'm not the girl who gets attached.
I don't like feelings, they're messy.
And I don't like being hurt.
Why did I let him get to me,
when I know that everyone always leaves?
Including me.
She's that shy, quiet girl, the one that everybody likes. She is beautiful, without trying. She's got the biggest heart, and alot of love to give, but no one to give it to. She is truly a nice girl, and she always wears the biggest smile. And every minute with her is worth its while. But on the inside she is filled with pain. She is far beyond lonely. For her, it seems to only rain. She really is a smart girl, but she can't understand why they all leave her for those other girls. She lies awake at night and asks herself, what is wrong with her, what did she do wrong? What do they have that she doesn't? But in reality, there is nothing wrong with her. No one has taken the time to just get to know her, to figure her out. She's real, she's deep and for that reason she has to suffer.
I’m finally realizing why God put me in so many tough spots in the past, it's all starting to pay off. I have great friends, with no drama going on at the moment. and I have one heck of an amazing guy. I think that God put me through all the crap with my ex's because he wanted to show me the way I shouldn't be treated. He wants me to realize that everyone else was right; none of them were good enough for me. now that I’ve found the guy of my dreams, it's all fitting into place. and for once, things are starting to be just fine.
I'm never going to talk to you first.
So if I mean anything, anything at all to you,
then you can talk to me because I give up.
What defines a best friend? What are the requirements to be a good best friend?
How many hours a week does it entail? Stupid questions that have no answers.
A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone,
or how many hours they hang out together.
It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have.
There are no requirements or laws that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend,
or tell each other every little detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion.
It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things.
It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst.
It is the person who saves you when you didn’t even notice that you needed saving.
Mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming.
Constantly talking isn't necessarily communicating.
Forever never seemed so close as when
you put your hands in my pockets and said,
"I'm quite fond of you kid. I think we'll be just fine.
You keep the sky & I'll settle for that look in your eyes"
Laying there with your arms around me, I felt so comfortable and safe. My heart was beating a mile a minute having you so close to me. As you played with my hair and kissed me, I couldn't help but smile straight from my heart. I could see how much you cared from the look in your eyes. It made me never want to let you go, to just stay wrapped in your arms forever, where nothing else matters but you and me.
It's weird, you know the end of something that has taken so much time to get over is coming, and you're so relieved that it's finally here but you still, for some reason, still want to hold on. Just for one more second, just so it can hurt a little more. After all, this problem has been your life for so long, you're not sure if you'll be used to being free.
It's really difficult to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe in
Sometimes you don't know you've crossed a line until you're already on the other side.
Sometimes instead of finding what you want, you have to find what you need and once you find what you need, what you want will find you.
Life was so much easier,
when the biggest problem
was the monster in your closet.
Something good will come from this.
I'll be alright.
i miss those summer nights when nothing
got in the way of our fun, and fun was
all we had.
I may only be able to count my true friends on one hand. That doesn't say a lot about me, but it says everything about them.
I don’t remember what made us stop talking, I don’t even remember when the last time we did but I just want to let you know that I miss the best friend in you and I hope that you miss me too.
nothing compares to the stomach aches you get
from laughing too hard with your best friends
Thanks for being the friend who`s
always believed in me, who`s always
understood, who`s always accepted me,
who`s always cared.
Memories are only as good
as the people you can
make them with.
I remember when I used to be the happiest, loudest,
spunkiest person alive. Nothing could get me down for
very long. I smiled all the time and laughed nonstop.
I still glimpses of that girl sometimes, but not much. I
miss her, she was a good kid.
Promise yourself to be strong, that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of eveything & make your optimism come true. Think only the best, work only for the best, & expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past & press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side as long as you are true to the best that`s in you.
I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I just know I want to do it. I want to see my world, I want to meet every single person breathing on this earth. I want to give everyone a hug or a handshake and I want to make someone’s life a little easier. I want to be different than the people I know because that’s what makes us beautiful. I want to be absolutely ridiculous before I die. I don’t want regrets.. I want to stand for something.
I think that the only reason why people
hold onto memories so tight, for so long
is cause memories are the only things that
don`t change when everything else does.
i used to have the most amazing friends.
i still have the same friends.
they just no longer amaze me.
Stop and make sure that everything you are doing right now is really what makes you happy. You can't just live for some goal in the future and have that be everything... have that be it. Because that is what some people do. They get on this road and there are all these signs saying, 'This way. That way.' But what if you get there, you get exactly what you wanted, like some people do, except all the things that were wrong, are still wrong. Then what?
You get a strange feeling when you're
about to leave a place, I told him. Like
you'll not only miss the people you love,
but you'll miss the person you are now
at this time and place, because you'll
never be this way ever again.
Times were tough,
but the memories remain.
Situations were rough,
but we overcame.
Side by side; together we grew.
Cause when it's said and done,
I'll look back on a friend like you.
you can find good in anybody if you give them a chance, benefit of a doubt. sometimes people disappoint you. sometimes they surprise you, but you never really get to know them until you listen to what’s in their hearts
i think about the person i used to be, & she seems so far away . she walked fast , i walk slow . she stayed up late & got up early , i sleep . i feel like if she gets any farther , i won't be connected to her at all anymore.
it's not who you knew the longest,
it's who never left your side.
years from now, i wont remember every friday night or the things that made us laugh so hard that our stomachs hurt. but i will always remember that they were the ones there
but the real secret to total gorgeousness
is to believe in yourself, have self confidence
and try to be secure in your decisions and thoughts
i think change is a good thing. althought it may be terrifying to get out of your comfort zone, it's also very exciting to start a new chapter of your life.
Our memories of yesterday will
last a lifetime. We'll take the best,
forget the rest, and someday we'll
find these are the best of times
We're best friends forever. Our friendship is unlike any other. Sometimes you scare me, but you always make me laugh. Sometimes I piss you off, but we always make up right after. If you ever left me best friend-less, I don't know what I'd do with myself
If a man takes the risk to cheat
he's saying
'this is worth losing her'
Don't talk to me, don't look at me.
No we can't be friends.
This little game you have, has got to end.
You can't flirt with me like it's nothing.
Because you're breaking my heart,
my entire world is falling apart.
Go your own way, & I'll go mine.
I'm going to get over you,
just give me a little time.
Every one of our attempted conversations ends with me in your arms, our lips pressed together. Every one of our attempts at being friendly ends with us realizing that we can't be
"just friends."
I put on an act sometimes,
&& people think I'm insensitive.
Really, it's like a kind of armor
Because actually I'm too sensitive.
If there are two hundred people
In a room && one of them doesn't like me,
I've got to get out.
You've brought sunshine into my life
You've filled me with happiness I never knew
You gave me more joy than I ever dreamed of
And no one, no one can take the place of you.
Ten bucks says you'll be crawling into bed with me.
Putting your hands and lips where they don't belong.
But ten bucks says I won't say no.
i've made mistakes, i've let people take advantage of me, and I accepted way less than I deserve. But, I've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I'll know better next time and I won't settle for anything less than I deserve.
The purpose of life, is to find something worth
dying for, and then living for it.
never let success get to your head
and never let failure get to your heart
I know I’m not easy to understand. I know I keep a lot inside and I know I’m not the easiest person to read, but that’s okay. Cause even though there’s a lot about me you’ll never know, there’s a hell of a lot more of me you can learn to love
hold on to a best friend when you find one
because i bet that in your entire lifetime,
you won't find anybody else like them.
Your character is based on what you stand for.
Your reputation is based on what you fall for.
Life is like riding a bicycle.
To keep your balance, you must keep moving.
She tells herself that this summer will be different.
Somehow she'll makeover her soul
And when fall returns, no one will be able to recognize her.
I will always be that girl wanting but never having.
I will always be that girl seeing but never feeling.
I will always be that girl who doesn't know the difference
Between dreams and reality.
I guess you can say I will always be that girl waiting.
Only the best of friends would know
That when you tell them you dont want to talk,
You really need someone to tell your problems to.
She's the kind of girl that's there for anyone.
The kind of girl that would put all her problems aside
Just to help someone else with theirs.
The kind of girl who cares about others and loves with all her heart.
The kind of girl that hide her pain behind make-up and fake smiles.
The kind of girl that won't even let you bring her down.
Sometimes I feel a little jealous inside,
Imagining someone can please you more than me.
I guess its just my insecurities acting up a bit,
Because I know I'm not the most beautiful,
Most fun, or even the most exciting person you'll ever meet.
God created men first because he needed a rough draft
Before creating a master piece.
She's classy, unlike all the other girls.
She knows herself and she knows she's not perfect,
But she spends her time having fun and doing the best she can with what she's got.
I fall back on the bed surrounded by laughter of newfound friends. I realize sometimes happiness doesn't lies with those who know you best, but those who don't know you at all.
i'm at the point in my life where things are neither good or bad. they could be better, but they could be worse and i can't look at anything with a purely pessimistic or optimistic point of view. it's that point in life where you just have to forge foward and hope for the best. you keep your fingers crossed in hopes that someday catching that happiness you tried so hard to hold in your grasp. that's the thing about happiness, it is fleeting. like that firefly you try to capture and no matter how many times you waver, try to clasp it in your hands, but it never wants to be kept. keep on foot in front of the other and move along, because someday that firefly will find it's way back to you.
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted;
he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.
-Psalm 34:18
You will be missed.
You were always here
to get me through times like this.
And I know if you were here,
you'd be laughing at me.
You would say
you're not as alone as you think.
Ok so I can’t take a compliment, I get mad way too easily and tend to talk down about myself. I cry over little things, and I let what people say get to me. I paint my nails obnoxious colors, and I wear flip-flops in the cold. I’m stubborn, annoying, & I’ll probably piss you off. But give me a chance.. I’ve been through a lot.
Everyone always looked at me as the girl who couldn't hold her own when trouble came.
Well I proved them all wrong when I let go of you.
it's that kind of friendship you can't put into
words, but it doesn't matter because you
don't need anyone else to understand.
She hasn't smiled much lately
and she doesn't know why.
your biggest challenge isn’t someone else;
it’s the ache in your lungs,
the burning in your legs,
and the voice inside you that yells "can’t !".
but you don’t listen,
you push harder.
you hear the voice whisper "can ",
and you discover that the person you thought you were,
is no match for the one you really are.
I'm the kind of girl who can talk to a
stranger about anything & everything,
but I can't tell my best friend how much
I'm hurting. I can let people know that
I'm young and not worry about it, but I
can't tell them how much I miss being
younger. I hate not being invited to parties
cause I feel so alone. And I can't understand
how I don't have many friends. I'm the
kind of girl that can be easy to fall for
and I'm the kind of girl who falls easily.
A true friend won't question your motives, will hug you just cause they can sense that you need it, will never fall for your famous false smile that fools everyone else, will let you listen to your favorite song over & over in the car even when they don't like the song, will tell you the truth even when you'd rather not hear it, & will never leave your side, in good times or in bad ones, now don't tell me you think you find people that are that special to your life everyday.
We talk like we know what's going on, but we don't. We don't know anything. We're young and we're gonna screw-up a lot. We're gonna keep changing our minds and even sometimes our hearts and through all that, the only real thing we can offer each other is forgiveness.
She’s the kind of girl who is constantly
making mistakes and always getting
them shoved back in her face.
i can tell she's my very best friend
'cause she's behind me even
when I'm nothing but a mess
I hate the girl staring back at me in the mirror. I wish that she would just leave. The sad part is, sometimes the only person who understands you is that pathetic reflection. She's the only person who feels the same pain you do. I almost feel sorry for her, but just like everyone else, there isn't anything I can do to comfort her. Oh well, at least I'm not alone.
Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to
know that you're a good person & a good friend. What is meant
to be will end up good & what isn’t, wont. Relationships are
worth fighting for, but sometimes you can’t be the only one
fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don’t,
you must just move on & realize what you gave them was more than
they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great
things when they come around & don’t lose something real. Always
fight until you cant anymore, and then be fought for.
Whenever you think
you're not cut out for this life,
remember, someone knows
you're going to make it.
Someone created these obstacles for you
because they know you can get over them.
You just have to have faith,
and keep trying.
You'll make it
because anything that doesn't kill you
can only make you stronger.
i used to be called a "good girl" no,
that never happens anymore.
its just a little hard to be a good girl,
when dating a bad boy.
sometimes you just gotta put your self out there
it might be awkward but in the long run
you'll be happy you did it.
Teachers never die. They live in your memory forever.
They were there when you arrived; they were there when you left.
Like fixtures. Once in a while they taught you something.
But not that often. And, you never really knew them,
any more than they knew you. Still, for awhile,
you believed in them. And, if you were lucky,
maybe there was one who believed in you.
my heart didn’t break into a thousand pieces after he left. Instead, I realized all the things he didn’t do. He didn’t want to hear my stories. He didn’t ask me questions. He didn’t smile when I was talking to him. He didn’t hug me out of the blue to make me feel good. His hugs were always a preamble to something else and after he was gone, I wondered if he ever knew me at all.
life is like an hourglass, sooner
or later, everything hits the bottom,
and all you have to do is be patient and
wait for someone to turn it around.
Be nice and smile to everyone you meet.
You don't know what they are going through, and they may need that smile, and treasure it.
The only thing better than the kiss itself, is the moment right before it,
when the look in his eyes leaves you breathless
If I could just lay with you, cuddle with you,
be held by you, that's all I need.
I'm not asking for commitment or kisses,
I've given up with that. All I need is just to
feel like someone loves me and cares about me,
even if it's just as a friend. cause quite honestly,
right now, I could really use a and a hug.
I want a boy who will tell me when i'm being stupid. who won't baby me with his words.
a boy who will still give time to his friends. a boy who will tell me no.
he would watch stupid movies with me but make me watch his favorites too.
a boy who's willing to drop everything for me, but knows when to let it be.
a boy who knows he's important to me, but won't mind when i change my plans to help someone.
a boy who won't mind my country urges, but will laugh at me when i pretend to be gangsta.
i want a boy who's enjoyable to look at, he doesn't have to be gorgeous,
i just want someone i can pay attention to.
a boy who can make jokes about me, a boy who i can laugh with,
someone who won't mind when i embarrass myself.
a boy who will buy me something i'll actually use, none of that jewelry crap.
a boy who has other girl friends, but i can trust him with them.
a boy who will know when to leave me alone when i have stupid fits.
i don't want the fairytale deal, i just want to feel comfortable.
and i'm not so sure how he does it
but when i'm in his arms
i feel like the prettiest girl on the planet.
it feels like everything is going
to be okay and there's nothing to worry
about at all.
I always hear girls talking about how
they would love to be kissed in the rain but
my fantasy has always been to be kissed in the snow.
It's just so pure, light, & flawless; a heaven on earth.
Besides, that way, if he decides to make you crash,
you have some extra padding on the ground.
i want to be the girl who he thinks is the cutest.
not necessarily the "hottest" or the "prettiest", but the cutest.
because hotness refers to the body, and god knows mine isn't perfect.
pretty refers to the face and i know plenty of girls prettier than me.
but cuteness is referring to every imperfection that he loves.
every weird little habit.
the funny little things that make me different from every other girl he could have.
like how i have a dorky laugh, or i can't watch gory movies,
or the way my hair smells.
all of the little things that he notices and adores.
i want to be that girl.
I love the way you look at me.
Especially when I say something really stupid.
You have this "why do I put up with you?" look.
But right after that is the "it's because I love you" look.
Then the "I must be insane to love you" look.
And finally the "I must be seriously insane" look.
i talked to your girlfriend today.
she seems pretty cool. but her taste in guys... sucks.
Girls have unique powers. They get wet without water, bleed without an injury and make boneless things get hard.
How do you go from seeing someone everyday To seeing them maybe once a week Without breaking down?
Have you ever thought`` When ever you get proposed to by the one you love who is the first friend that you'll call & tell.. If you were to move away; who is the friend that will always call you. If you had a wedding to go to & you didn't have a date.. Who is the first friend that you will call & see if they want to go with you. If you ever get bored one night.. Who is the first friend you talk to.. When you have a party to go to ` who is the first friend you want to crash it with.? & When you die.. What friends are going to be at your funeral
Just once I want someone to look at me & right away think I was beautiful. Not after they get to know me, or after they see inside my soul. Just once, I want to walk in a room, & light it up; Not blend in.
I put on an act sometimes,
&& people think I'm insensitive.
Really, it's like a kind of armor
Because actually I'm too sensitive.
If there are two hundred people
In a room && one of them doesn't like me,
I've got to get out.
Sometimes I wonder
What my life looks like
Through everyone else’s eyes
today i looked in the mirror and realized i look prettier when i'm happy.
"Strange, isn't it? Each man's life touches so many other lives. When he isn't around he leaves an awful hole, doesn't he?"
A person is never as quiet or unrestrained as they seem. Or as good, as bad, as vulnerable, as strong, or as sweet. We are thickly layered, page by page, behind a simple cover. And my love - it is not the book itself, but the binding. It can either rip us apart or hold us together.
There are some people who live in a dream world,
and there are some who face reality;
& then there are those who turn one into the other.
It's sad how you pass a girl in the hallway
at school, but nobody would ever know that
you spent every weekend & summer's never apart.
That you stayed up for hours on end talking about
boys, being crazy, and making a million different
memories. It's sad how you pass a girl in the hallway,
but nobody would ever have known you two were
once upon a time; best friends.
- peacelove_quotesx3
We used to be able to talk about everything,
but now it`s impossible to even start a decent
conversation with you. You can`t deny it, things
have changed . We`ve grown apart , & you have
to face the fact that I will no longer be there every
single time you need me, just like you`re not there
every single time I need you. The truth is what it is,
& that is I do not have any more respect for you as an
individual now.You`re just another face in the crowd
i love sleep.
my life has a tendency to
fall apart when i'm awake, you know?
We used to talk about everything.
Now its impossible to have a decent conversation with you.
I said yes to someone else because you didn't ask me.
She’s not like that now. She knows better. She knows now that people lie, and promises can be broken as quick as they’re made. She understands that she might never be loved, and too quickly good things fly in front of your eyes before you can reach out and grab them. She knows that you can’t change or help time, so every now and then it will just run out. There isn’t a place for everyone in the world, so if you’re standing alone for a while, that’s why. Not everything in life comes easy, but when you work the hardest, that’s when it’s best. You can’t always expect people to care, and even when you’re best friends stab you in the front, don’t think for one minute that they didn’t already aim for your back. They missed for a reason. She has found out too soon, that in this life you’re your own best friend. Everyone will be broken at some point their life and more often than not, it’s gonna hurt like hell. But you can’t stop it. You can’t change your fate. Some things are meant to be and all the pain you go through will end up resulting in something huge. You don’t know what it is and when it happens it will hit you like a ton of bricks. At some point, when you have experienced everything you can, the words Life and Risk won’t mean anything to you anymore. But don’t try and change that. Stuff like that is meant to happen. Over time, certain things no longer have an affect on you and that happens cause it’s the way it’s supposed to be. But you’ll learn all that later in life when little things like a sunrise or a spring rain start to matter. But it might catch you off guard and happen sooner. I mean, ask her. She knows.
She's the girl that has a few best friends & doesn't
need anymore, the girl that laughs the hardest at her
own jokes. She's the girl that will hang up on you,
but then call you right back & say sorry. She's the girl
who will never leave your side when you need her,
the girl who will go out of her way to cheer you up.
She's the girl who never sleeps without her teddy bear
by her side, she's the girl who says she isn't ticklish,
but really is. She's the girl who will not give up on
you if she really believes in you. She's the girl
who believes in loving somebody forever.
Did you ever notice how clear
the sky gets before a big storm?
It's like God's warning us that good
things never last.
I'm mad at myself, not you. I'm mad for always being nice.
I'm mad for always apologizing for things I didn't do.
I'm mad for getting attached.
I'm mad for depending on you and wasting my time on you.
I'm mad for thinking about you, and most of all for not hating you when I should.
you might not notice, but i need a good friend
someone to talk to when i'm down..
there's so much on my mind that i want to get out
but there's no one around.
its that feeling you get, right in your core when you
look around, look at all the people you're surrounded
by, and realize that these people are home.
Worrying is a waste of time. It doesn't change
anything, it just messes with your mind and steals
your happiness.
he watched her fall to her knees so many times
but manage to pull herself up every time
one day she didnt get up
he asked why and she said
"my knees are sore, and i've lost the will
to keep getting up when i just fall again anyways."
i know i shouldn’t like him, cause i know
it’s not working, so i convince myself i don’t.
& then i see him and he’ll smile or put his arm
around me or just say anything and then all
that logic & convincing myself evaporates
Do you ever have the feeling of not measuring up?" they ask me. "do you feel like you're not good enough?" inside i say to them, "inadequacy is my life."
She's a summer girl. she likes things simple & she hates drama. she wishes that she could wear flip-flops year round & she hates being cold. she's moody during the winter because things are usually falling apart. but then summer comes, it always does & she realizes that she has true friends, & that nothing can beat those summer days & nights that are spent with the waves crashing & the sand between her toes.
you never know who your true friends are..
until tears are rolling down your cheeks;
the true friends are the ones,
who are there to wipe the tears
&& hold your hand;
when everybody else just stands around
wondering what happened to you.
Stay encouraged. If it was intended for you to be with someone or to do something at a certain time or in a certain way -
there's absolutely nothing in this world powerful enough to overpower it. God has a perfect will.
Just because He lets something happen doesn't mean it was or wasn't meant to be.
Sometimes we get so consumed about what`s in front of us that we don`t want to let it go in fear that something better may never come along.
Don't be greedy. We all have to give something up in order to make room for something new.
If someone wants to
be apart of your life,
they’ll try to make an effort.
she always wondered what she never had.
an ego? not enough confidence? or maybe
just that she wasn't just another heartless whore
My greatest fear in life
is to not have a big enough impact on someone's life to always be remembered.
I'm just fifteen, but I'm slowly figuring out who I am and what I wanna be in life. I'm learning about what I need and beginning to know what I want. I have dreams and I want to accomplish them. I know how and I want many things to come true. In life, I don't want to be anyone else but me.
She’s only a teenager, just a typical fifteen year old that’s barely had her sweet sixteen yet. She hasn’t accomplished that much in her life but one day she plans to make her dreams come true. Her dreams are the size of the atlantic ocean, and if just a part of it comes true, it’s enough to last her a lifetime
If you look at me closely, right in the eyes,
you'll see this girl will always find her way.
Even if it might take a while longer than expected.
I've spent too much time on the sidelines. I've spent too much time saying "Don't,
were gonna get in trouble" I've spent too much time being the good girl. I've spent too
much time keeping all my feeling inside. I've spent too much time wanting the love like in the movies. I've spent too much time second-guessing myself. But now, I'm going to be the girl that other girls spend too much time wishing they were.
So I say a thousand stupid things & half the time I never mean them,
but this time I’m serious. I’m never going to talk to you first.
So If I mean anything, anything at all to you,
then you can talk to me because I give up.
There are these two sides of me constantly at war. One side wants to be happy and loving while the other wants to curl up and die. And they push each other and shove each other tearing me apart inside
and the sad part is no one will ever win."
Sometimes you don't want to know the truth,
you may think you do but once you know you'd give just about
anything to go back to being ignorant.
As I've grown, I've learned several things: life is full of disappointments and people you trusted will sooner or later let you down. I've learned that often those you love will love someone else and there's only one way to fall; fast and hard. I've learned that out of thousands of smiles, it takes one to touch your heart. I've found that words can be deceiving, but the truth always lies
in a person's eyes. I've learned that everything can change in the blink of an eye and tears often come without invitation. I've learned crying can make us stronger and there is never too much love to go around. I've learned that prejudice helps no one and that weapons don't hurt people, people hurt people. I've learned sticks and stones may leave cuts and bruises but harsh words leave scars. I've found that every time you give someone a piece of your heart, it's a piece that you will never get back. I've learned the past is meant to be put behind us and we can't dwell on regrets, for what's done is done. I've learned that trusting yourself is the first step and that forgiving is remembering that helps your own heart more then theirs. I've found that family isn't always blood and everyone is someone's hero. I've learned life is unexpected and that God can do anything. I've learned some things aren't meant to be understood and that only time
heals. I've found that imagination is our greatest gift and that we are meant to dream for a reason. I've learned it is never too late to fall in love and that being "beautiful" is all on the inside. Mistakes are our best teachers and everything happens for a reason. Only when you realize this, can you live life to it's full and true potential.
A wise man once said,
"You can have anything in life if you're willing sacrifice
everything else for it."
What he meant was nothing comes without a price.
So before you go into battle,
you better decide how much you're willing to lose.
say hello to the girl that i am
you're gonna have to see through my perspective
i need to make mistakes just to learn who i am
and i don't wanna be so damn protected.
You need to be aware of what others are doing, applaud their efforts, acknowledge their successes, and encourage them in their pursuits. When we all help one another, everybody wins.
all of us are stars and we all deserve to twinkle
“You can shed tears that he is gone, or you can smile because he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all he's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see him, or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember him only that he is gone, or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what he'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”
The thing is, I don't care what people think about me. Because I believe in myself. And I know that things are going to be okay.
and sometimes things just have to fall apart ; so better things can fall together.
why is it that at all funerals people cry? Don’t they know your not there because someone died. your there because someone lived.
It takes courgae to grow up and become who you really are
-E.E. Cummings
Everyone has their fantasy world.
The one they go to when reality is too much to handle.
Where you're not fighting just to get through the day,
the hour, or the conversation.
Sometimes we all just like to stay there a while.
Once upon a time;
There was a girl
Who had no reason to fake a smile;
Who never cried.
Who was always strong.
Who never broke.
She loved to get up and go,
And loved when she came home
But now he smile is permanently fake
She cries herself to sleep every night
She’s no longer strong
And she finally broke
She hates getting up and going
But she hates coming home just as much
She hopes that the girl she once knew returns
Because being miserable is terrible
Trust me I know
Friendship is a blessing,
and love is a gift.
Do not let it go easily.
i guess i just have to accept that you aren't the person that i once knew. & that we aren't best friends that we once were.
Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent.
It's not who you are that holds you back,
it's who you think you are not.
"winning isn't everything,
but wanting to win is."
-Vince Lombardi-
Life's not a race, take it a little slower,
stop and hear the music before the song is over.
If everything happened when and how we wanted,
nothing would be worth waiting for.
Confidence is that inner voice that says
you're becoming what you're capable of.
Above all else, guard you heart, for it affects everything you do.
- Proverbs 4:23
Have the courage to fail big and stick around.
Make them wonder why you're still smiling.
After every dark night, there’s a bright day. So no matter how hard it gets, stick out your chest, & keep your head up.
Find peace with the past,
comfort in the present,
and hope for the future;
only then will you find happiness.
Maybe some people aren't
meant to be in our lives forever.
Maybe some are just passing
through to teach us a lesson.
Boredom is your mind's way of saying
that you aren't doing all that you can do with your life.
We all die. The goal isn’t to live forever, the goal is to create something that will
A ship is safe in harbor, but that's not what ships are for.
- William Shedd –
Don't let go too soon but don't hang on too long.
- Mitch Albom –
And don't be wishing you were someplace else or with someone else.
Where you are right now is God's place for you. Live and Obey and Love
and Believe right there.
- 1 Corinthians 7:17 –
Don't just pretend to love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Hold
tightly to what is good. Love each other with genuine affection, and take
delight in honoring each other. Never be lazy, but work hard and serve the
Lord enthusiastically. Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble,
and keep on praying. When God's people are in need, be ready to help them.
Always be eager to practice hospitality.
- Romans 12:9-13 –
there are some people in life
that make you laugh a little louder
smile a little brighter
and live a little better
You either got it, or you dont. But we amigos.... we definitley got it.
++Happy Feet
you have three choices
you can give up. give in. or give it your all
The cracks in the concrete are just reminders
that you'll fall apart, no matter how strong you are
A dream is a wish your heart makes.
I know we've grown apart lately and I know we've got a lot ahead of us. But I just want you to know, I’m always gonna be here for you.
See how far you'll go, testing your fears. Doing things you want to do because calling it a dare makes it okay. At least for one night.
Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone, and do not be troubled about the future, for it has yet to come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering
Looking back on what i said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams i had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a sucessful life, then some would say I'm a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past and recognize that every day wont be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair remember its only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home
So dont be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, beacuse most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you could ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end the journey is the destination.
And now I know what matters, it’s those nights,
when you and your best friends, sit there.
Holding hands. And crying your hearts out,
because for all this time you've been holding your emotions in,
and finally, you were able to let them out.
Able to tell the truth to them,
and to yourself.
“I was anchored to something once. But I never wanted to be anchored to someone. Maybe that makes me driftwood. But maybe it makes me my own person.”
“I know what its like to be sitting in your room, listening to all the doubts your parents have about you.”
We lose friends, we gain friends and along the road we find ourselves.
If I had to select one quality,
one personal characteristic that
I regard as being most highly
correlated with success, whatever
the field, I would pick the trait of
persistence, determination, the
will to endure to the end, to get
knocked down seventy times and
get up off the floor saying,
"Here comes number seventy-one!"
++ Richard M. DeVos
She’s not like every other girl. She doesn’t give a shit what she looks like and to her make-up is a waste of time. She will eat like a pig and not care if they make fun of her. She’ll be a dork and she’ll act stupid. And if you haven’t noticed, she probably has the best friends around. And it’s not because she a stupid fake teenage girl, its cause she’s herself
She's only 16. A young woman to the world but still a little girl at heart. She's stuck in the middle, trying to act her age & have fun at the same time. She's trying to achieve her goals but not get too stressed. She's trying to fall in love while trying to be independent at the same time. Learning to fly out into the world on her own while deep down inside she just wants her daddy's arms wrapped around her. She's trying to smile through it all, even through the pain. She's seen her friends & family get hurt & she's even seen some of them die but she keeps her faith in God. She can't wait to grow up but, in a way, she's already there. She's only 16. so young, but not.
i have always been a laugher; disturbing people who
are not laughers, upsetting whole audiences at theaters.
i laugh, that's all. i love to laugh. laughter to me, is being
alive. i have had rotten times, and i have laughed through
them. even in the midst of the very worst times i have laughed.
a broken heart can only mend
with Jesus as your closest friend
you wanna know why we can't be together?
because i don't trust myself with you
i want a guy that doesn't care about what i wear,
how i do my hair. who loves my smile & my goofy laugh
& how i get hyper when i'm tired. who would never want
to see me cry; at least not sad tears and who'd do those
small things that make my day just because he knows
it would make me happy.
I like people who have a sense of individuality.
I love expression and anything awkward and
imperfect, because that's natural and that's real.
The little girl you knew,
the one who never stood up to you.
Who kept her silence too long, well,
She's gone with the wind.
She's the kind of girl everyone wants to be like.
everything in her life is going perfect right now.
she knows everyone else envies her, and she,
still walks around with her head held high,
cause she lives her life for herself and only herself.
I’m the kind of person who will see all your defects
and learn to love you for them, who you could talk to for hours
on the phone, who will put herself in your situation and see the reason
behind what you do and why you do it, who will always be there
when you need her to be, who wont give up on you even
if you give up on yourself, who likes to look up at the sky
and watch the clouds pass by, who never lets you see her down,
who dances around in her underwear and a tank top
at night when no one is looking, who falls for lies and
excuses, who doesn’t question her judgment,
who enjoys eating cereal in the middle of the night,
who loves acting like a little kid, who says what she's
thinking no matter who's around, who doesn’t trust easily
and regrets without knowing, who loves her life and her
friends and will do anything for the people she cares for.
I’m the kind of person you won’t regret meeting, I promise<3
Maybe he's starting to see the real
girl. The one behind an ambitious,
quiet & self-concious girl. The one
who loves her friends more than life
itself & laughs about pretty much
everything, because she can & that's
what she thinks life is all about;
having the time of your life.
There's a difference between dumb & ditzy.
Dumb is not knowing,
Ditzy is having the courage to ask.
i've given up on so many things, don't ask me to give up on you.
You grab my attention when you walk into the room.
It could be midnight and I'm still thinking of you.
I cannot control the feelings you got me going through.
I want to be yours but, that's up to you.
so what's it gonna take-
for a guy like you, to love a girl like me
have you seen her with her friends?
that's who she really is on the inside,
not the underconfident, self-concious,
quiet girl everyone pictures her to be
You read "sorry, try again" off the inside of a bottle cap; story of your life you never come first, you're never the winner, you're never the best. There's always someone better. Maybe next time; you did your best. At least you tried. All these things are supposed to make you feel better, but it just reminds you that no matter how hard you try, how you gave it your all, you failed. You'll never be good enough for him.
this is all i ever hear:
"be a good girl, just behave, whats wrong
with you? settle down, keep your two feet
on the ground, sit up straight, stand up tall,
never falter, never fall, stay in school, make
the grade, never fail, never fade, be a hero,
be a star, be everything but who you are."
it's usually the small things that make
you smile, like a hug goodmorning
I'm the type of girl who always gets what I want,
but I'd give it all away for everything to be
the way that it used to be.
She's not the kind of girl who likes to
tell the world about the way she feels about herself
She's just a southern girl lost in thought
& waiting for the one who loves her.
Life is but a brief moment. The years go by quickly and
old age arrives suddenly before we have an inkling. People
desire so many things and waste their days in vain. Some yearn
for gold, others for power, yet others for glory and a higher station.
But when death's moment nears and they look back at their lives
they've lived, they realize they've been happy only during those
moments when they've loved.
It's not who you spend the most time with
it's who you have the best memories with.
All I want to do is help.
I want to help because
I don't think people should suffer like they do
. Because if there is no bigger meaning
then the smallest act of kindness
is the greatest thing in the world.
After all these months, all this time, so much has happened. The talks, the phone calls, the laughs and the feelings. If I were to look back on them, I would never have believed that, that person was once me. I wouldn't recognize that girl because she's so different from me. But I guess changing and moving on is growing up, I'm growing up and finding out what kind of person I want to be for the rest of my life. And maybe in the future, there are more changes to come, but as for right now, this is who I'm proud to be.
we’re only put through as much as we can handle.
so, the people who struggle the most have been chosen
by God to end up being the strongest people.
It's amazing how every girl has that one guy that could call
her up at 3 in the morning, and say 'Let's hang out, I'm
coming to get you.' And she'd put aside her show, her
excitement, her anger or hate for him. She'd only give
him 4 words. 'Give me 10 minutes.'
and this girl has seen a lot of pain, but this girls gonna smile again.
She knows a flower grows every time it rains.
-Nikki Flores
May those who love us ; love us. And those who do not love us ,
may God turn their hearts . And if he cannot turn their hearts ,
may he turn their ankles so that we may know them by their limping .
-Irish Prayer
i dont understand
is there something wrong with me?
am i just not good enough anymore?
you say one thing to me
and ignore the rest of the time
maybe its not me who changed
but you
There's moments in your life that make you...that set the course for
who you're gonna be. Sometimes they're little subtle moments.
Sometimes they're not. Bottom line is even when you see them coming,
you're not ready for the big moments. Nobody asks for their life to change.
Not really, but it does. So what are we helpless? Puppets? No, the big
moments are gonna come. You can't help that. It's what you do afterwards
that counts. Thats when you find out who you are.
When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the
most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice,
solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our
wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with
us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour
of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing,
not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a
friend who cares.
Here's the thing, I'm just trying to be a good friend
And right now that means not talking to you
because dispite the way I feel, I'm
not going to ruin what you two have.
Because that's what friends do.
A friend is someone you can get mad at, and stay mad at for a while. A best friend is someone you can get mad at, but the anger goes away as soon as something important comes up, because you have to tell them.
i thought you stopped liking me. why?
because i figured you would get sick
of me by now, just like the rest. but
then i realized your not like the rest.
The worst part about Friday was that, even though I knew he wasn’t going to be there, I still hoped.
reading gives us somewhere to go when we have to stay where we are.
-mason cooley.
you will be missed. you were always here to get me through times like this, and i know if you were here, you'd be laughing at me. you would say, "you're not as alone as you think."
I always avoided fights.
I make jokes instead.
I tell people what they want to hear in
order to avoid a confrontation. I pretend to want
things I don't want and I pretend not
to want things I do want. No one gets hurt.
Except me.
its hard for me to admit
but i dont like that your bestfriends with me
and my enemy. i know it shouldnt
change anything because i know your
a good friend but it seems like everything
i say will to told with her to
so who are you really
loyal too?
for the first time in my life
i finally know exactly what i want
and it is you
this girl has seen al of pain
but this girl is gonna smile again
and she knows that everything shes got
is all shes got to loose
breaking down can be a good thing
sometimes. you let out all of your
sadness and angers go away. once that is all
gone all you have left inside you are the
good memories. your the only person though
that can bring back the bad again but you
also are the only person to bring in happiness
so what will you choose to do?
Every now and then
I remeber the times
we shared. I always wonder
how things would have been
if you didnt leave that summer
day without saying goodbye
i think i figured out the real reason why girls fall for players
because when your around them they act like your there whole world
but the second you leave they become another girls world too
without you even know it, and yes its completly unexpected
unitll you see if for your self
I'm not the kind of girl who’s going to tell you how cute your eyes are, or how much I want a hug. I'm the kind of girl who will ignore you in the halls, until you talk to me or hit me to get my attention. I wont ask you out. It's up to you, idiot. Now you know how I am. So take me or leave
I'm not shy, I'm just afraid to
be bold and noticed
After hiding so long
Its hard to show yoru real self
To more than just your friends
So dont say I'm not outgoing
Because you have no idea
I’m not ready for change
The girl inside me doesn’t want to let go
Scared possibly her first everything’s would fade away
She doesn’t want to e forgotten by
Her first love, hoping he will one day
Be her special one again
Your suppose to be my friend
But ever since he came along
you have been so different.
The way you are treating me now
makes me wonder why i was friends with you?
Don't expect me to help you when he
breaks your heart, because I won't
Things need to change
I just want my best friend back
As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them,to your greatest delight and benefit.
-----Emmanuel Teney
Friends always say "You before him"
But what happens when that changes?
And they change and now you barely talk to each other?
Walking through the crowded halls but feel so alone
Because my Best Friend was gone with the person you already know
But once he breaks your heart
And you realizes he was nothing more then a knight in tinfoil
Just to let you know I might not be there for you
Because you weren't there when i needed you the most
What do you do when the one you care about is getting hurt?
And there is nothing you can do but listen to the stories
that hurts you the most in fear for them?
All because a promise to not say a word
People ask me all the time why she is my Best Friend and I say...
Because she is the only person that can get me on the floor laughing till my stomach hurts. The only one that can make me smile when I'm in tears. The only one that I can say anything to without it having to mean anything. The only one thats would call at midnight to say Merry Christmas. The only one that would be right there next to me in jail as partners in crime. The only one that is a true friend till the end no matter what. That's why shes my BEST FRIEND.
Well, he told me his problems.
It was about some other girl.
I told him if he liked her, go for it.
If it didn’t work, well he should
Know better than anyone how
Easy it is to get over someone.
That’s when he asked what I
Was going on about.
I reminded him that he got over me.
He laughed out loud and said,
Didn’t you wonder why we
Barely talk anymore?
I’m still crazy about you.
So play it innocent, girl.
Boys like it that way.
Sluts are overrated,
And they never find love.
Just because you know someone doesn't mean you love them, and just because you don't know people doesn't mean you can't love them. You can fall in love with a complete stranger in a heartbeat, if God planned that route for you. So open your heart to strangers more often. You never know when God will throw that pass at you
Look, I care about you a lot. But I`m just not in that kind of love anymore. We`ve been through so much, it`s like you`re my brother, you know? So it`s okay if we talk, you know you make me laugh. But don`t hold onto me because we both know I`m not coming back. I wish I could, but I just can`t. It`s always okay to move on, you know?
sometimes i really wonder how stupid it would seem to him. how i sit here with my eyes never leaving the screen of my phone waiting for his next text. or refreshing the screen until it says he's online. or how when i miss him i read the things he told me months and months ago. i really wonder what he would say if he knew he meant that much to me
Just once in my life I want someone else to
kiss first. I want someone else to lie awake
and wonder what the right words are,
if they'll be rejected, if they're ruining a great
friendship. I want him to want me so much
that he can't help himself, that he's willing to
risk everything for a chance to be with me.
& She is the smartest person I know. Not because she's school smart. Because she's not. She's barely passing her classes, yet she jokes about it with friends. But she KNOWS things. IMPORTANT things. She gets that she won't need to know calculus after she graduates. She fills her brain with things that MATTER. She's just.. smart. & It's because she understands things that no one else does. She's wise beyond her years and totally underrated. People cast her off as another dumb blond, but I know that she can take over the world if she really wanted.
Are you really not ready? Or are you just afraid?
Or maybe you sorta kinda believe in yourself,
but you have that guarantee from another person that you ARE good enough.
Well, take this as a sign. You CAN do it, and you WILL do it. And it will be amazing, and worth it.
I think the reason why our wishes never come true,
is because most of the time,
we wish for ourselves.
So tonight at 11:11,
wish for a friend or a family member.
or at least wish that someone is wishing for you.
i love people who make me laugh. i honestly
think it's the thing i like most, TO LAUGH. it
cures a multitude of ills. it's probably the
most important thing in a person.
I think I’m finally getting used to the sucky days caused by you, the fake smiles and good times, the glances over that now mean absolutely nothing, how whenever I get that one new text message, I’m always hoping it’s you, the plans that never really happen. I think I’m finally getting used to liking you and all that comes with it.
Dream with all your heart little girl. One day those dreams will turn into reality. Wish with all your might little girl. I swear those wishes will come true. Never stop believing little girl. For if you don't believe then who will give the other little girls hope?
And I wish you could see my now; I have lots of friends and I'm liked by many people; I'm even loved by a few. You see, all those years of putting me down didn't mess me up; they made me a stronger person
I`m the girl.
The one that`s always lost.
The one with the fake smile.
The girl who seems to be so strong
but daily continues to break.
That girl who`s always there
and seems to have no problems of her own.
The one who holds back tears.
until she`s off the phone.
She's the girl who's always
laughing her ass off with her friends.
You walk past her and you think,
"Wow she must really be over me."
But no, she's not over you,
she wants you, but you never gave her a shot.
She's not faking that smile.
She's happy, but with you,
she'd never stop smiling
We all have a godshaped hole in our hearts that can only be filled by god.
You can try filling it with drinking, partying, or lust;
But it will NEVER complete you.That is something only God can do.
i think about the person i used to be, & she seems so far away . she walked fast , i walk slow . she stayed up late & got up early , i sleep . i feel like if she gets any farther , i won't be connected to her at all anymore.
friends come & go. true friends go & come back.
when we were little we had dreams of being big rockstars & doctors. now life has changed & those dreams have faded. now we're just hoping we make it.
i usually don't like thinking about the future. i mean, let's face it, you can't predict what's gunna happen. but sometimes, the thing you didn't expect is what you really wanted after all. maybe the best thing to do is just stop trying to figure out where you're going, & enjoy where you're at.
when i pictured myself it was always like just an outline in a coloring book with the inside not yet completed. all the standard features were there but the colors, zigzags, the plaids, the bits & pieces that made up me weren't yet in place. i was still waiting.
the problem with coming clean was that you thought you were clearing the slate, starting over, but it never quite worked that way. you can't erase what you've done.
our best decisions, the ones we never regret, come from listening to ourselves.
i feel sometimes, that nobody has held me down & forced me to cry or made me hug them, or got to the inside of me. its like i say " oh, im fine. " & walk away. nobody has ever said, " no you're not. "
it's amazing how all this can be happening. i mean, my whole life is falling apart & yet, every time i talk to him, i stop feeling sorry for myself, & i begin to smile. he always has that effect over me.
There's nothing you can do about the past.
But you can do a great deal about your future.
You don't have to be the same person you were yesterday.
You can make changes in your life,
Absolutely startling changes, in a fairly short time.
You can make changes you can't even conceive of now,
If you give yourself a chance.
We don’t talk for days and I promise myself i’m
mad at you but then you call, or text, &just like that,
I don’t care how long its been as long as we're talking
It was cold. Your hands were shaking,
and I stepped in front of you just to wrap
my arms around you as I said,
"Let's pretend winter isn't here."
As you buried your head in my shoulder, you said,
"Let's pretend the snow isn't the only thing falling fast."
Maybe I'd get my morals back.
Sometimes I thought I'd only misplaced them.
Set them on top of the fridge, or some
other spot I never thought to look.
I tried so hard to save you, but eventually, I had to let go and let you save yourself. Not because I didn't love you, but because I loved you too much.
I hate it when a relationship starts losing its meaning. Words are carelessly thrown around, either being used too early or too often. Actions just lead & become all about sex. What makes a relationship special anymore? There is no more waiting; the mystery & simplicity of it all seem to have just disappeared
You never see the hard days in a photo album,
but those are the ones that get you from one
happy snapshot to the next.
It's those pills that you don't need to take,
medicating perfection, now that's a mistake.
he’s the only guy to look past what others think about me. To not care what I’m labeled. To look deeper than the designer clothes, makeup and hair perfectly done. If you’re going to mess with that, then I’m not going to sit back and let you. I’ll put up a fight for him. He’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me
And by the time our generation hits the age of 50,
we're all going to be deaf. The funny thing
is nobody even cares. For the truth is, we blast
our music to drown out today's psychotic society.
Change was coming. I could feel it. It wasn’t a pleasant prospect, not when life was perfect the way it was
he may not know it
but he granted her wish
with one small kiss
He was tall and she was short.
He was outgoing and she was shy.
He was handsome, but man, she was beautiful.
They were different in many ways,
but it was how they came together
when no one was looking that caught the two of them off guard.
Failure will never overtake me if my
determination to succeed is strong enough.
+ + Og Mandino
Boys make the best friends.
No hating, no drama... just brotherly love
i love it when your nice to me
and when you flirt a ton.
but then you just ignore me
and it hurts so much
i wish you would just
decide on one emotion
and then i wouldn't be so unsure
nothing was perfect, but everything was real.
God designed the human body so that we can neither
pat our backs nor kick ourselves too easily.
I should have run from you, but I was stupid.
I would have saved myself from being hurt everyday.
I woke up and find myself enclosed in pity and
self-conciousness. You didn't care about me, you never did.
But I was there for you, and I was stupid.
let's be honest. sometimes there is nothing harder
in life than being happy for someone else.
She'll be the first to admit that she's not perfect.
Her life's a wreck, & the only thing holding her up is the hope that it'll get better
She's got some friends who would die for her, & she has friends that would kill her, given the chance.
She has the mental stability of a psychiatric patient, & the constant drama that surrounds her doesn't help.
She's lost all of the people she depended on, whether it be death, or betrayal.
Despite everything that has happened to her,
the reason she keeps hanging on is the hope that it will all get better.
it's not that she's different or weird; she's unique,
she's special. don't take that for granted, because
it was that special something that caught your
eye in the first place.
it's not that she's different or weird; she's unique,
she's special. don't take that for granted, because
it was that special something that caught your
eye in the first place.
ask anyone and theyll tell you how happy ive been lately.
i havent felt this amazing in a very long time.
a lot of this has to do with you walking into my life
He would ask me why I was smiling and I would just laugh.
I could never admit that I was smiling because he was there
& sometimes i wish he would
just walk right up to me and kiss
me without a care in the world
when i dont see you in the halls
for those few minutes in between classes
it bums me out going to my next class
because those few minutes between class
are the best moments of my whole day
a real best friend never gets sick of you
they always want to hang out with each other
they have all the insiders in the world
no matter what happens or who comes along . . .
nothing gets in the way of their friendship
Have you ever thought`` When ever you get proposed to
by the one you love who is the first friend that you'll call
& tell.. If you were to move away; who is the friend
that will always call you. If you had a wedding to go
to & you didn't have a date.. Who is the first friend that
you will call & see if they want to go with you. If you
ever get bored one night.. Who is the first friend you talk to..
When you have a party to go to ` who is the first friend
you want to crash it with.? & When you die..
What friends are going to be at your funeral.
I hate how we never hang out anymore and how we were great friends. I hate how you’ll never talk to me, but then you’ll talk to my best friends. I hate how whenever I see you, you don’t see me. I hate when I have something to say online, your only response is “yeah.”
actually, no, i am not okay;
what i really need is for you to give me a hug,
one like you used to.
i need you to tell me that i still mean something to you,
like you swore i always would.
She finally lets go of her fake smile & the tears
slowly roll down her face as
she whispers in the mirror,
"I don't want to be me"
I'm going somewhere in life, I've got dreams to reach & things to do. Don't bring your drama into my life because, shit, I got my own. I'm done with letting people bring me down, & I'm not taking any bullshit from anyone. I'm my own person, not no one else's bitch. I'm down for people who are down for me. If you don't know me, don't act like you do because I've got enough people in my life to keep me going. Don't go running your mouth about me because you don't know shit about me. Don't believe the shit others tell you, believe things you hear on your own. Be your own damn self & who cares what others say about you. It's not like they're living your life for you. Don't stand for peoples shit because they're just going to cause more pain in your life. I'm going to succeed because I don't stand for your shit; I got my best girls & they got my heart pumping.
